allyme-hello

2008-09-10T16:51:00.006+08:00

GOTTA RUN OFF TO FIND THE ROADBUGS
heyhoyhey,
i am finally ready to say FAREWELL to this great blog
until the last paper of O LEVEL
which is like on 13NOVEMBER08.
i shall not update till 18NOVEMBER or so.
14NOVEMBER is graduation night.
16 TO 18NOVEMBER is class chalet at ARANDA
(squels!).

but for now....
ill be busy killling dead bugs
that i presume are already dead.
ill make rainbows out of mushrooms
ill fly to space by riding a mustang.
in otherwords,
IM GOING BONKERS.
exciting or what.
ill find a little rose embedded
in a sea of onions and flour
and dream that you'll still be there
when my ride is done,
for you're dearly missed.
till then
take care sugary apple crumble people.
from this wOman-made.

in search for a destiny

2008-09-07T17:32:00.004+08:00

the clash of a fool and a hot pancake

excuse me, im in the midst of spelling out all the food in the world

that i am craving for now in my head.

definitely, its a huge challenge and a great skill that

i have yet to muster fully

another not-so-perfect week has gone by like a drastic flu.

cold and cryptic.

time has been split to two major parts;

tv and let me see...

workworkworkworkwork.

im in a daze right now.

and yes, science centre trip on thursday was a blast.

why?

well, 4/7 was there too.

so shazni was there to fill in the beans of laughter with us.

and yes, i couldnt help turning behind

and making stupid faces at hadi.

and i was aided together with denise

who joined in and we sorta had a blast.

and she stole me this photo, no wait,

i got a photo from her that i feel like laughing at.
haha.

i guess the moon did evolved together with the sun.

but i shall not meet with it.

such spiritual waves of motion-likeness,

indulge with radical competence and insighted fleas.

strangeness.

i shall now have a dream.

of purple skies and heartshaped roads,

reflected in a daze of the truth and hardship of the world.

so i shall stand and watch as you go further and further away,

into the ashes of

paperloves and rocky goodbyes.

2008-08-29T17:08:00.006+08:00

patterns of shaded weeds and a glorified piercing lip.
HELLO. today was the BOMB, to the max.
the school was filled with both present and past students,
not to forget umar who came. haha, all i can say. "WOOH!".
oh yes, dear me, many people have changed quite abit.
i wonder what would my batch look like next year on the very same day.
interesting.
tired as ever and mugging begins this monday,
with papers and ink to finish up.
weee, sounds pretty awesome down here.
but up there, its a timeless zone, egde with a 6 pointer.
i'll be there, hopefully, and so would many others.
till then, from this woman-made
have a great holiday and remember,
the moon and the sun have merge to form what i call,
a stranger.
now that's something/someone i'd like to meet,
or have i?
i wonder.

2008-08-28T18:53:00.003+08:00

pretty simple hearts threaded with golden love
back again with simple succint words to describe life.
it may bore you but this is how i role hunnay.
2moro OH GOSH, hope umar comes.
there i said his name out loud. happy?
its been a long time, long time.
and i made a great choice today
for 2moro.
thought of going with the 4/7 to watch a movie,
after aana kindly invited.
i'd go just for you but it makes no sense,
since ive made such a wrong decision before,
leaving my friends.
and now i've learned that
its time for me to be with them.
PROM SHOPPING YAO.
haha.

2008-08-26T09:56:00.004+08:00

NINE'S a remedy.
im searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle
that I see inside
Painting all my dreams
the color of pure gold

When I find them
it will be alright
I need to try
to get to where they are
Could it be that they're not that far?
-jonas brothers

SHUT UP, im trying to meditate here. im talking about my 9A1s.

2008-08-25T13:13:00.005+08:00

if i had a way,
if i could turn back time,
i would have changed
evey single step i had made.
i wouldnt have gone crazy
over people like you-know-who
i wouldnt have caused a stir in people's life
i wouldnt let jealousy get the crumbs of me
and basically, i wouldnt fall into regrettion
every single time i open that little memory room
at the back of my head.
im closing that door once again.
never to retrieve the crushed key
because,
its done.
im over it.

by the time im there, finally at the last step,

i see you and..........
THE END.

2008-08-20T08:00:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel so stupid that
maybe if you gave me a rock
i thought you just pulled out my brain
where's my smartness man?
it better come soon, i need it.
desperately,
yeah homeys, call me a DESPERADO,
for having a sore brainless mind.
but fret not, i will not succumb to this
unbearable circumstances.
i need to stop being a stereotypist.
seriously.
its pushing me to the limits.
and maybe i should stop liking you.
haha.
so random.
i feel like a kid now stuck in an ageless body.
laughs again.
(DENISE)! *squels.
i think she's the only one who knows how i feel.
hey, best friend rights.
oh well, O LEVELS is 2nd to nobody.
and i shall prove that 9 A1s
is not such a hard deal to close.
till then,
hearts and kicks
from this woman-made.

2008-08-15T21:31:00.003+08:00

"A silent sigh, for a silent wait.

the yearning is overwhelming, yet,

they remained calm and contented.

But I'm not. "

2008-08-14T18:05:00.002+08:00

"Im going to push myself to go against the wind and show to the rest that
neither am i deproving nor am i giving up.
my tears are just a reflection of anger and regrettion.
its time to get even and the race has just begun."

2008-08-11T08:58:00.005+08:00

THE IDEA OF A BROWN DAY

there you are,
sitting just a few tables away from me

on a monday,

on a tuesday,
your smile, your gaze
OMG. this rocks sah.
the coolness have welcomed back
the sweet reverie of hugs and kisses
awesomeness have rebeled.
killers are going down
poodles are crying for joy
singers are going haywire
bears are talking
computers are breaking down
the temperature has gone up to 1o1 degrees
skateboarders are wearing skirts
gays are going bald all around
teachers have partied
i have scored 9As. TSK.
mountains turn purple
cats gone cuter
hot guys drink foot tea
girls aint wearing make-up
and all thats left,
is YOU and ME

incredulous AWESOMENESS.
OMG.

im loving this moment

just this moment.

smile people.

2008-07-21T18:03:00.007+08:00

one more stop before i go
this days are filled with flashes of the past
and the beginning of something new
something different, yet still magnificent
a dream i could turn into reality
with just a twist of fate
unlocking the truth was hard but it taught me a lesson,
that we have ourselves to believe in.
so what if we are doubt by people who search for
something we don't have, never the heart.
some friendships came as a wise choice
and some choose to fly away, so high, never looking back
life is meaningful yet we stumble again and again on
anger, sadness and sober.
why? for we couldn't see pass our eyes,
pass our differences.
destiny lies beyond us,
shall we finally search for it,
with a yearn so true, so young, so surreal.
appreciate life, for you came once and you can never come back,
to make the vital changes.
and love, what can i say,
i had my fair share of fun and tears.
its okay,the existence,the people i knew, and met with

sharing great times,

were kind and lovely
Ive grown from there, from them
to realize that this is not what I'm searching for now, not yet.
happiness, that's what i want and thankfully, i found it.
maturity passed with this growing wisdom.
its time i carry on with life,
to search for my very own Cinderella ending.
thank you and finally,
to you,
a beautiful goodbye.

2008-07-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

on 14th july,

(the post is extra early)

HAPPY 16TH BURPDAY TO ME!

its strange but i still feel like a 6 year old kid trap in a body that can watch NC 16 shows. lahh, WOOH, exciting or what. basically id like to thank myself for reaching this far and hope that i can go further. id like to take this opportunity to thank one very great person who have helped me survive this 16 years of heaven and hell delights and that is,

MYSELF OF COURSE,

NURALYAH RAZALI

thanks for being there and trusting all my nonsensical judgements and my weird up and down love cycle. today i hit myself in the head and it occurred to me that the only person i love, was and has and is and will always be ME. and it had stayed that way for a long time. the longing the emptiness that i felt, was purely nothingness. and i can tell you how free-spirited i am now. I'm so happy, being 16, well almost, have really changed my mind quite a bit. and my resolution is to have a happier life, thats all. i have great friends, cousins, family, teachers,

HEY

what more do i need?

haaha

2008-07-13T21:45:00.004+08:00

this is how you get a gold olympic medal in 35246years

another example too

hehehe, welcome to my world

i tried the UNDERPASS.

2008-07-13T21:25:00.006+08:00

BIZZARE OUTLOOK FOR THE DAY

i was inspired to do a SWAN LAKE ROUTINE

BUS-ACHOLICS

tired to jump over the hurdles

a little something-something

PRCS ROCKS.

HOMEY

what can i say, ALL FOR ONE.

my oh so, half curtsey.

i think im loving my shoes you know.

& a great fanatic still

woooh, we bombarded this bus huh.

2008-07-13T19:13:00.004+08:00

IT HIT ME HARD ON THE HEAD,THE FEELINGS HAD DIED

damn i wish i knew about this like 3636762767623 years ago, seriously. im freaking celebrating sah like crap. i feel so HAHA, FRESH? lol.anyways, today was the most SYIOKESS DAY EVER!!!!! what did we do?? well, me umairah and shazni and rau went to tampines stadium at 7.30am for some FUN, EXCITEMENT AND OMGAD, SO MUCH MOREE! and anyways, well, here is a brief summary of what had happened, the laziness sprung up in me like a dead knot.

run a few rounds around the stadium
play street soccer (wooohhh)
ride with the wind during badminton match
a little of basketball (i scored a three pointer shoot out!)
drank at macdonalds
play badminton at my house court with RAU
watch TV and slack
preparing to STUDY!
fetch mum at 12MIDNIGHT from hongkong
get ready for MY 16TH BURFDAE!!!!!
kiss my past goodbye

thats what i did basically AND intending to also do too. so omgard,. life is so fun yet stressful. but its okay, as long as EDWARD CULLEN is in my head and i have TREMENDOUS CRAZY FRIENDS, life is good, life is great. i love the world. really.

SUPERB ALLY. =))

2008-07-12T13:00:00.004+08:00

TWILIGHT MANIAC

actually this buzz abut twilight came around like about one month ago and here i am reading BOOK 2, NEW MOON. its super exciting. im not going to gasp around telling you about the sypnosis about this book because its mainly about a vampire falling in love with a human, awww, bu tcome book two, everything seems to fall apart. book one was simply amazing, may be more. and ive been going through websites, staring at ROBERT PATTINSON A.K.A EDWARD CULLEN, my hero. omygard, he is soooo hoT. his onyx eyes are flaming hot and his perfect facial curves makes my heat go dupdup and dooop. DAMIT, he can fly. and he is hot, with those hot abs. oh god, he is right for this role.so right. well, i wont update much actually because there isnt much happening around, no frenzy attitude spilling out from me, no shockers, no nothing. just me. sounds boring huh. oh yah, my sis saw umar in the bus 3 going back home while i was in school doing PHYSICS SPA, hmm, sweet bitter memories. and well, hopefully, 2moro shall bring some sunlight in my face because we are going to play street soccer! no where unfamiliar, just at TAMPINES STADIUM, just after dawn. i need more colour in my eyes, seriously. and yeah, life has been so predictably, yet incredulously manageable. hopefully it stays that way huh. and without further ado, GOODBYE.

TWO MORE DAYS TO SUPERB SIXTEEN!

i turned.
i stopped.
and i realized
the emptiness in me creeping up inside.
the clock is ticking.
"go faster", i said.
because, it burns to know that
i need to see you again

2008-07-10T18:51:00.008+08:00

TO RIDE ALONG THAT PINKISH SUMMER RAINBOW WITH YOU

veryvery busy. might as well go on a hiatus, yeah? anyways, school is pretty hectic with many things, oh well, the usual stuff. i don't even have time to look at myself in the mirror and see three red deep fine lines along my cheek this morning. though it hurts, i only realize the deep cuts at 2pm. OHMYGOD. very scary.and i have short nails okay. freaky. and well, after school hours are being spent wisely going home or walking home with friends. and yes, tests here and there. i think im going to do moderately well for all tests, not as well as before since well, ummm, yesh. ahha, of course ill try my best. don't want to stress myself. the pressure is building up rather quickly. grogginess are weird side-effects. but there are okay. anyways, onwards with life huh, actually. well, life, not much huh. anyways, its only for 4 more months left and prep is starting soon so woooh, lets get on with it okay? woooh, lol, im getting madder and madder, this post is so random. oh yes, im not interfering with any gays from now on. don't ask me why. life is strange.

get mad.

4 MORE DAYS TO MY GREAT SIXTEEN.

you're cool with it,

im cool with you too.

haha

2008-07-08T20:24:00.002+08:00

the subtle yarn of hope

i won't give up that easily,

i believe that making mistakes are part of life.

and learning to make things right

is second habit to nature

i won't drop now.

not even once.

smile, the world needs it

i need it from you too.

2008-07-07T20:14:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhh.

I LOVE MYSELF. seriously. haha, still 19:38 raudhah. hahaha. hahahahhah. i wanna scream cos i feel that laughter and excitement has covered my whole self, including my ass. scream with me people. SCREAM. skanky man. skanky. well, hello and welcome to my blog. love my song? its sheepishly romeo and juliet style, dont you think so. SCHOOOL??? NO, NEVER. ahhh, we should all go to school to fill up all those great memories everyday. i have such great ones. adn i love ERIC DILL AND MANSON. yes, call me slow and whatsoever, but i just watched taking 5 just now, and i fell in love with the vibrant and sexxay movie. seriously. id like to get close to them. i'll kidnap your heart and store it in my safe. love it. WHY AM I SO flabberghastly happy, I DUNEO, because its not worth mourning okay.

happychick

skanky randomness,

cos' you make me smile

2008-07-07T14:24:00.001+08:00

took from the newspaper

my dad's the 2nd person to your right, sitting down.

hoho.

2008-07-07T13:42:00.007+08:00

shazni,alyahMOI, umairah
DAMN, we look flushed.

JOLLYGOODWONDERLAND.

oh hi, welcome back. lol, a rather formal greeting i should say. well, i presume and i think that my fingers are suffering from pain caused by blisters since yesterday's post was massive and huge and superistically long. well, thats for not updating in almost a week. oh boy, im here. and i feel so hippy and all. i wonder why. anyways, being chirpy can only last till 12midnite since tomoro is the start of ohsofascinating things. blablabla, i wouldnt want to dweel on the uprising sarcasism of boredom and so much more. lets talk about good things. let me see. i have so many. no maybe one, no, two, oh well. lets start.

SELANGOR CUP

my dad scored the last penalty for the veteran's cup. each side, together with the selangor's team had eight chances. and my dad's friends were like telling him, forcing him actually to shoot the last goal. my dad didnt want since during the MALAYSIAN CUP in 1988, i think, he did the penalty and failed to score for singapore. the cup went to malaysia. haha, BUT HE SCORED!!! im so proud for him, since he had many downs in this few months and just to feel his win at selangor stadium made me smile. he needed that goal to at least let him feel happiness from football. proud of you dad. he sms my mum and said that his jinx was gone. ahahh, wow, and i told many people that im famous, but its actually my dad. and his photo came out in the malay BERITA HARIAN. woooh. HAHA. well, he's coming back in 4 hrs. HURRAY!

TODAY, TAMPINES STADIUM

rau and nadrah couldnt make it. sad.me, umairah and shazni went to tampines stadium at about 7.45am, there were so many people. i expected to see familiar faces, but we end up seeing MR.ONG. haha, yeah, he ran continously while we had to stop like after every round. ahah, after that the three of us played badminton under the shade. hahah, the ball got stuck at the tree, and we all shaked the tree like mad till it came down,WOOH. HHAHA, and we continued playing till about 0930. we bought drinks at MACDONALDS and took the bus back. so here i am, slacking at home. pretty flushed actually. and i feel like cutting the old damn shady tree, inside it the key to my dreams. GAAAH. can they come true like NOOOW.

OH, my burfdae? ONE MORE WEEK, 14 JULY.

hehhe, im 16! wooh, but i feel like 6? no, maybe 66? theres so much i need to accomplish in life and hope god give me the chance to do good in life..

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.

even if you didnt know.

i'd tell you now,

since i've got four months left,

and finally,

back to something that makes me feel so great

you.

2008-07-06T18:10:00.005+08:00

me and bestie, shazni

thanks for being there

*got it from zhen qiang

OBS CAMP 2007

GOSH, LET ME SCREAM OUT LOUD OVER THIS BREAK.

look how happy i am back then. yes, i am now too. but it seems easier to smile last year than before. you guys know why, you don't have to scratch your head for the answer. well, laahh, some things just don't go your way somehow. im still mourning, deep down. omygrad, this is bad. i got TO release it. like now, this freaking moment. but no, i guess i just cant.

i hope you know.

AT,

19:38

you charmed my heart

i cant let go,

not now.

not yet

2008-07-06T17:54:00.001+08:00

HWA CHONG MUSICAL AUDIENCE

2008-07-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

you dont know how glad i am to have them...

2008-07-06T17:24:00.011+08:00

check out the time

& ooh, the bracelets..

when there's too many MRT stops..

HUIBIN somehow looks like cheryl.

haoshan, she got high, STC maybe.

STELLA'S STORY!!!!

AHHHHH.

KILLYJOY

RJ JAZZ BAND

FUNK FACTION CREW

INTERMISSION..

WOOOH.

DANCEPOINTE

CUTE HUH..

POLISH DANCE

OMGARD...

OWNED BY CHERYL, ME AND NAEEM

2008-07-06T16:06:00.010+08:00

JUST LOOK AT THE TIME
just loook at your digital watch on your right or left wrist and tell me how long have i not updated? a week or so? maybe less than that i suppose. no one's missing me which is terribly a sad issue because i seem to be missing people or rather someone. well, wouldnt wanna flaunt on that now shall i?

the week, gosh. it had been a long and tiring week for me, theres practically a test every single day, not to forget that over loading daily assignments that you HAVE to feast your pens and pencils on. im stupendously tired. really. i wonder how my other friends are hanging up on today. take a pill, sumone should say. but having to sleep throughout the whole day is going to be somewhat a waste of time, unless you have exciting dreams, whats there to miss anyways. and goin home has been rather a challenge for me. no, im not describing about my lazy legs, its more of, well, going home reminds me of all the house chores and homework that we all have to deal with. but never say that you have to NOT go home. sounds wrong huh the sentence there, don't you think? before i bring you to an enthralling journey through my weekend, let me briefly describe to you my weekdays. whats there to be excited about, hello there, mr.bringey?

WEEKDAYS
i seem to be lazy to do well for my tests, but the biology retest was somewhat an easy task accomplished! wooh. and well, maths, i seriously love A MATHS rather than E MATHS, because, the latter, though seems easy, its rather mind-boggling, as a whole. and the former? you just have to remember the formulas like remembering your history notes. its easy once you snapped your fingers twice, literally. and i have been seeing alot of nizam everywhere. not literally. but in the morning and after school. really. i find it cute and funny. and strange though. nope, dont you people come out with any theory thats gonna only get you a big fist right into your jaw there. so wel, LOL. and i have been waking up so late like 645am. which seems rather jolly good hilarious. HAHA. but i made it to school in time. thank god. and there it is. a brief summary of my weekdays. seem terrible hhuh? oh, PE was fun. we girls just slacked around, kicking balls out of our legs. no, we are not putting up anti-balls campaign during PE. its just the lazinesss that stubbornly instills in us that mads us sit in a big circle and pass a ball around using our legs. sounds wrong. which part? EVERYTHING. ahah.

WEEKENDS, THE BASHING WEEKENDS
weekends suond like a breather to you and me, thank god, it somehow is one. well, yesterday i followed my mum to the TAMPINES POLYCLINIC. tampines reminds me of so many things. my grandpa needed the visit and my dad is in MALAYSIA currently for the SELANGOR CUP tilll monday. so i have to be the substitute and follow her and my aunt too. well, then we all ate at RASA 21 at afghanistan at around 1.45pm. i was suppose to meet the gang at 2pm at ws macs but well, i was going to be late, no doubt about that. well, i finally met the bunch of them doign the GRAD NITE FILM DEBUT. haaha, and we hang around, laughing and squirming around. shazni came. AHEM. and rau went to BUGIS with her mates to study. and at 6.30pm, ten of us left for HWA CHONG JC ARTS MUSICAL.

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TO HWA CHONG JC MUSICAL
we alighted at newton and realized tHAT we miss bus 171 and the next bus was going to reached about half an hour later we are going to be sooo late. so we all split and took the cab. me adn jolene with cheryl got in the last atxi and i paid $6.5o. while dominic paid for the MERCEDES taxi a whooping $7.50. so we reached the bus stop of the mEGA SCHOOOL GROUND. and found oursleves locked out of the school.so we WALKED briskly to the other end of the school and found oursleves lost in the building. it was dark and there were millions of auditorium roooms to choose from. scary thought. and well, it felt like going to physical training at OBS. ahah, but we made it on time to the performance room. gosh. *wiping sweat

INSPIRE 08
the show collaborated with the STRAITS TIME to raise fun for the school pocket money fund set up by the paper organisation itself. and well, it had great performances by many artistes ranging from classical to screamo rock too. let me tell you more about them

HWA CHONG VERY OWN BBOYING
it was rather an OKAY only. there were like so many dancers on stage and they were like all oevr the places and many couldnt keep up with the momentum. but however the music was very upbeat and some of the guys were simply just dashing. but their passion and love for the arts flow right through us which was really cool.

RJC CHINESE DANCE
as much as i love dance. i have to say this this dance, had a sorta theme for us. its like calling the queen of *ahem. they shouted which reminded me so much of her and they moved around as though inviting her presence. it was funny but overall very appreciative.

PIANO SOLO
the pianist was great. her fingers jumped from scale to scale. and there were so much anger in some of the climax that i love. however it was rather long and it felt as though i was sitting in a high tea restaurant and feeding myself over and over again with ice cubes. anyways, it was an eye-opening experience for me.

DANCPOINTE SINGAPORE
SO CUTE, small ctue kids were ballerina ring on stage

FUNK FACTION CREW
this was THE BOMB! it felt like they came out from STEP UP 2 MOVIE. simply stunning and cool.. robotic with style. love it. drool on it.

KILLJOYS
this band is an alumni to the hosting school and i just love monica's voice. she sang two of jason mraz song which i totally love and well, the band was magically hard to forget

SHEENA AND SHARMAINE GOH

famous for being a favourite finalist in the CAMPUS SUPERSTAR show, they duet a japanesS song that i OH SO LOVE. they really proved that they rocked the small audience that night. and more so, they are twins with different fashion taste.

RJ JAZZ BAND
the singer was hot and had a sexy voice. but it was just too low for jazzy music. it almost sounded monotonous throughout their two songs. but the guitarist and the bass was great. and the drummer/pianist too.

STELLA STORY!!!
the finale was to die for!!!!! the singer, whom i forgot the name, oh yeah, naepal, WAS SOOOO HOT!!!! AHHHHH. okae, they rock scorpion's songs and their originals were pretty awesome too. i felt like standing up but i dun want to be laughed at. ahah, they were sooo rockishbabes and really blew me away to utter awesomeness. GOISH LOVE THEM.

BACK HOME
we took the cab back to the mrt. it was already 10.45pm, and we feared of missing the last mrt at about 2312. so we took the ride home and mum came to fetch me. i had a great sleep okay.

TODAY
i feel so tired but happy, contented. why? i have no idea why.

TOMOROW
shazni, rau and i are finally heading to tampines stadium to run and play. hope that nadrah could make it. well, its going to be soo much fun. woooh.

NOW THIS IS! MY LONGEST POST SO FAR.

2008-07-01T17:48:00.003+08:00

SUPER TIRED.CHECK.SUPER MAD.CHECK.

GAAHHH, no matter h0ow much i study biology, i always seem to get average marks. i feel so sad because i haven't found the RIGHT way to score well when now is already July. sigh. biology is one of the very few subjects that i have so much interest in, and seeing my score of a B, that gives me the bigger drive to do even better. I'm not giving up, sure like duuh. ill make sure i get that damn A1 that i want for O LEVEL. seriously, poor results now drives me mad. and tomorrow there's chem o level spa and GAH, need to get that 4 MARKS. I'm taking a break now from studying chem and looking through the notes and all. GAH, need to sleep at 12am again. OH NO. last night i stayed up till 1 am just to do LITERATURE, and the result, rather satisfying. should have finish that over the weekend. LOLS. and now, many of my classmates are gonna chiong like mad. poor thing. so many homework.GAH. how many times have i said 'GAH'. lols. im complaining like an under-training mafia. oh no, though it sounds cool, omygard, nooo. need to wake up and get that spanking 9As. hahah, wells, time to go off now. thislah thatlah. and i seriously need my cure/medication now. sufiah, go get it for me. NOW. haha.

I'm Trying And Hoping,

For The Day

When my touch is enough

To Take The Pain Away

Cause I've Searched For So Long

The Answer Is Clear

I'll be OK if you Don't Let It Disappear

2008-07-01T00:16:00.004+08:00

overwhelming thoughts

cold,

scared,

funny,

weird,

strange,

mad,

tired,

sleepy,

exhausted,

dissapointed,

worried,

in love,

sigh.

exams, tests, homework,revision,

but you never fail to make me smile,

awwww.

2008-06-29T17:03:00.004+08:00

Playing it wrong would kill my heart.

Deeper than your mind could comprehend.

All I can do is wait

and wait.

[edit]15 more days to make my wish come true,please?[/edit]

2008-06-29T16:16:00.002+08:00

BACK WHEN IM DESTINED TO TRY AND LEAVE
yesterday had been a pretty tiring yet memorable day. it all started when i met howie at tampines mrt and we headed to kembangan mrt to meet jing wei from hwa chong jc who is going to pass us the dance musical tickets that will be held at their school this saturday night. oh boy, i cant wait. so the both of us made ourselves at home at the kembangan mrt platform close to 4pm. jing wei finally came.

jing wei: so which of you is haoshan?
haoshan: er, me
jingwei: i thought 'haoshan' is a boy!
haoshan: i thought jing wei is a boy!
hahahahhaha

at the moment it was super hilarious. well we got the tickets and headed back to the east side. we got engage in a hot topic from the DOG to GB and so much more and when we were at tampines mrt, haoshan nearly miss her stop. OOPS, my bet. well, after that i went to whitesands bk to find albin, steph and meera talking and laughing about something. albin followed me to buy double chocolate for the group at macs and we met them back and started doing our revision. i for once, managed to finish my newspaper article in just half and hour, WOOH. anyways we suddenly moved to a topic about stephanie and we talked about shane and all, it drifted to gary and so much more. super hilarious. and i saw nizam at ws, came back after band. we continued to do our work adn at about 6pm raudhah called just in time when we about to leave. so i met her and bid the rest farewell. me and her including albin took the mrt to tampines. little did we realize, shocked, that albin lived near umar. i was like W-H-A-T, after all this while and he said he thought i knew, you thought huh. funny. well, he went off and we went to century square when guees what, RAU'S SLLIPER TERPUTUS! haha, its the third with me, so i think well, im jinX

I HAVE THE ANGEL'S CURSE
so we bought new shoes at BATA, thanks to my good luck charm, i found a soldier like palm shoes selling at 15 bucks, so i paid 5 while she paid the rest. so we headed up to the malay foodplace where i bought..yeah, you guessed it right, FISHBALL NOODLES. wooh, we talked for awhile and we saw naufal and his dad just as we were about to leave the place. we scooted the area and headed back to whitesands where we goobed each floor. hahah.

RAUDHAH: insolipitan nipple
(we were looking at bottle TITS for babies)
ALYAH: for the bottle what
RAUDHAH: AHAHAH(she spelled DIRTY on her forehead)
WHHHHHHAT

i was like crap!? and we walked back home. her feet itched so she walked barefooted. nice. and i managed to tell her the truth of everything, my feelings and all since she's the one first to know bout many complicated stuff. so yeah, i did felt better though.

ALYAH: rau told me that im still clinging on uh, next year, new environment can let go easily uh. MEERA: but next year, WONT IT be the same environment?
haha, oh yahhh...later that night
RAUDHAH: i mean, meet new people all that. (i forgot the next part)

im digging this song sah. anyways, i feel like i feel so rightlah. and today, i did nothing much, study study. kak hairin told me to do some weekly planning. eys, and know i have to go. life is so damn busy now, somtimes it sucks but hey, lost of sacrifices, its good for health, omygard, i sound so shhheeeepish. oh well, BYES.

i won't say goodbye

not yet

2008-06-28T12:06:00.001+08:00

lets dance to the beat of your heart

2008-06-28T11:12:00.011+08:00

FLUBBERYGLAST EMBODIED IN DREADFUL CONSPIRACY..

i wanna see you again, i wanna see your smile again, i wanna stare at your 'ithinkimcool' look and drool (okay reck that) , i wanna feel your warmness, i want you to wish me happy burfdae. haha.basically im like mad lah okay, super random, but thoughts HAVE turn to words, and for that i wanna tell you, your the time of my life.

TAKEN FROM HAOSHAN'S BLOG
1. what do you want most in your life now?
- good O LEVEL GRADES

2.who is the closest person to you in school?
-ZOMG, JACKSON 5

3. are you afraid of death?
-yes, dear me.

4.what is your goal this year?
-lose 15 kg.

5. do you believe in love at first sight?
-definitely, definitely hunnay.

6.do you believe in eternal love?
-soon i will

7.what is the most dreadest thing for you this year?
-mum's naggings to do well in O's

8.what do you enjoy most in your life?
-laughing at my idiotic mind

9.who are the most important people in you life now?
-my friends

10. do you like your cca?
-never

11. who do you think you will spent your whole life with?
- my hero

12. who do you talk most in school about your life?
-shazni

13. what do you thing is the most important thing in life now?
-searching for desired laughters

14.who is the last person you talk to on msn?
-must i say? (shh)

15. who was the last person you talk to on the phone?
-my sexay GF, haoshan

i wouldnt want anyone else to this, we are so busy now, us humans, trying to be the best out of everything we do, and yes, but greatly, im a multi-multi tasker. can? owkaes, gota chiao. take care peepps.

shining like a polished leather

ettaittert❤

2008-06-27T21:48:00.004+08:00

here me scream your name

I ALMOST TOLD YOU

well, today had been a great day. studied at whitesands macs with cheryl,huibin and shazni. haoshan went off earlier for piano class and dad fetched me at 1730. the pile of homework is soon to be fetching up to my height, dear me. worried like hell, and we had literature homework for the first time in many terms. i repeat, terms, i didnt say YEARS. ahha, and well, yes, tomoro shall go whitesandsburgerking to finish them up in the after noon. oh well, so much to do so little time, reminds me of the olsen twins though. i love my life, no i dont. not at all, i love it about 75 & something else is missing...you, okae, im crapping like mad here lah. my mind is of total brainless crazay wacky no duffy song singing in my head. my burfdae i coming up and i soo dunnoe what i want from my parents, actually, i shouldnt ask. LOL. my sis and zal wanna bring me to this MALAY ROMEO AND JULIET, i love the story but i prefer other shakespeares story like MACBETH. and somemore its in malay, and you guys know how much i prefer conversing in english. okay, wells, anyways, ive gone around many blogs, complaining about the O'S and all. hey, chill and take a step back hunnays. and you know what, just flow with the breeze just like every pollen grain from the anther of a flower from the pollen sacs and that leads to self-pollination and okay i should stop now. short post but hey life is not fair sometimes, and YES! finaaly after along time, goin to tampines stadium on SUNDAY morning. WOOH. hope rau can make it since my sis and zal are UBER READY. okay, see ya fluggeries.

i watch the buttons
and i wanted to tell you everything
but i stop and told myself
it wasnt worth a single part of your heart
but i aint giving up just like that

2008-06-26T20:20:00.006+08:00

missing you even more each day

CRUNCHING ON MUNCHY APPLES

no, im not preparing on an early death, well actually i have an urge, a FORCED desire to eat apples everyday. it begins like a chant and wouldnt end, an endless charm, one might consider it to be. oh well, schoool has been rather mundane though its fruitful and all, but i guess going to school is pretty more exciting and adventurous than sitting and rotting at home if you are like me, a person with no self-control over almost anything. so, the solution? stay in school as long as you can. so thats what i did since my mum called and she allowed me to stay and study in school. so i sat with shereen and syaficat at the cantin and we all started racing to the finish line of chemistry homework, which was pretty cool since syaficat seemed to have all the right answers and i seem to have...NONE. wow. PE ended at 4.15pm and i lost weight! so happy. but PE was a great, legal case of boredom where the judge allows the jurors to drool and recite their ABCs backwards. it was seriously boring. it wont be a surprise if many agree that they miss mr.neo and mr.san, though they can bring the tension during PE. there's no control during PE. im not condemning anyone here, hear me before you start to build a longlasting rumour about my post. well, it seems that there is no force during PE and might as well i fly home and snore right through my pillow casing. seriously. but anyways, thank god i dun have to sit and diddledaddle at PE since we are going on A PE BREAK SOON. wooooh. anyways, shazni met me after class and we stayed till about 6.00pm and walked back home.

LET ME SEE YOU AGAIN

we walked back home and crapped many things. we made up about our MT OLEVEL ORAL, what questions would come out and what kind of question, an idiot, eg, me, would answer. we came up with nasty ones and it really was damn funny. so she took her bus after we walked home. im super glad to have a best friend that desires things as much as i do too. to date, i have 11 best friends, coool.and well,nadrah went out late since she had to talk to her junior so we headed out first.. HAHAH.miss that smallcuteiwannakill little GIRL.

and gosh, i finally remembered a short convo i had with fabian in class, seriously, because of him, i have build up a sense of doing frantic actions in class. he sat on my leg just now since i was resting my legs on his chair.OMGAZZ. his butt is HOT. okay, screw that. but really. ZOMYGARD.

DURING BIOLOGY

fabian: whats conspicuos?

alyah: umm, like you know that NELLY FURTADO SONG..conspicuos?

fabian: isnt promiscuos?

YEAHS.

hhaa, laugh with me people, total bullshitypie but i think it was hilariously sexay. all rounded idiot again. okaes, i love to continue and drag this post now but i think i should go back and study biology AGAIN, since plants test is tomorow. so where should i go after school? HOME, not so soon. i miss bubbleteachocolatewafflefrenchfriesmcdonaldskfclongjohnsilver. i havent been eating junk food for like since sunday? i think that cost me 2kg. cool. what am i doing here. i think i shall go now, before i babble again and u start to find another blog to read.

and yes! saturday, studying at airport i think and sunday we shall all go tampines gym to exercise and run right after sunrise.

& im gonna lie

& say that i don't miss you

at all, why?

cos' you don't even know how i feel for you.

NOW

(even my password reminds me of you)

ZOMYGARD.

2008-06-24T17:33:00.006+08:00

fresh news

&& YOUR EYES PARALYSED MY TEARS

okay,WOOH,im back again from no where, but from school. as you can see, im so hyper-teric about coming back from school and to sit infront of my computer. okay let me start by saying you make me smile with a cheesywhitepepper smear on my lips. school is rocking like hell. i mean, i dun go down to eat recess, need to save money, so me and shazni packed our own lunch boxes..reminds you of primary school days..oh no.. well, we get to spent more time with the JACKSON 5, cheryl and many more of my classmates. and i made up a hysterical graph on the board that had the y-axis as our names and x-axis as the timeline for O LEVEL. well, credits to random ideas by the class during recess yeah. and after school, i forgot about haoshan, cheryl,huibin and shazni because i was indulge in a SWEETSEXXAYHOT conversation with zhen qian. we were elaborating on many things that speaks about the effect of our results, yes, JC OR POLYS. cant help but to ring it up again huh? and we talked about stalkers and many other things too.i was super carried away and i realized when i blink my eyes, the greenman turns red, i told the rest who catched up with us and yes, im an all rounded idiot still, now, a lamp idiot. sigh.

WALKING

we saw unsightful events and we investigated but it didnt went well, and shazni kept saying 'alyah, ur best friend'. felt like slapping her at that very moment. ahah, NO!!! wells, we went to SHOP AND SAVE where i bought muesli's and raisins, missing them like crap. and i actually had wanted to ask for POPULAR CARD from huibin before i went to the cashier to pay. HAHA, IT WAS HILARIOUS. stupid me. and we saw many PRCS students hanging around at the BB TEA SHOP. and we bought BB TEA and walked home, i think i like it went we all spent time at the BUSSTOP at my house, awaiting the next bus,. and i feel super relax at home whenever i reach home before 5pm. so here i am now, staring at the computer. well there is much work to be done. HOMEWORK.

WOOOOH

the list of 4-10distinction scorers came up already and my name is there! haha, theres only like 11 of us up on there compared to last year's 4/8 that had a whole line of them. no matter what, its the O's everyone is going to kill! and OMIGOSH, i realized all my post are catered to the O LEVELS, oh no.

i like. and yes, come fly kites with me?

off now, to the books, television and so much more. woooh.

i love literature..

your smile

got me wondering.

2008-06-23T18:12:00.006+08:00

I'M SO DIGGING THIS BLOG
easy to say, hard to show, BUT I LOVE THIS BLOG. oomygard. the first day of school, well, i do find it okay haha why? i have no idea but I'm gonna treasure this months that are going to pass by pretty fast and boy am i waiting eagerly for the O LEVEL. wish me luck and YEY, my name is on the board, ahah, lame. and I'm so loving this blog. such a random post but people, love me or hate me, we humans, have a lovable sight to all. and heys, thanks auntie for that WORTHY EMAIL, it got me thinking of my DSA, well, whether im using it or not, its still a question lingering in my mind. okay, gotago STUDY. need to keep up that 9As. GOTA beat her, him, you, she, that, they, them,YOU.
Y-O-U. oh damn, im so ready.
SUPER RANDOM.

a murderous sight

you made my eyes go round and round.

but when i think of others,

the world just got brighter

2008-06-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

THIS BLOG IS GOING TO TERMINATE AFTER 14JULY
yes, i shall terminate my blog on 14 july or maybe after that. you wanna noe why? well, 14 july is MY BURFDAE. yes, sweet 16. im going to love the feeling of turning 16, which is actually, no feeling at all, it just reminds you of how old you are and what accomplishments you have achieved so far.. and to look back at the almost 16 years ago? i havent done much for the society, yet more my family, friends and so many more. the one thing that i have achieved would be having a barbaric attitude and also many having to be called new found names and finally getting my dream job with meera, a zookeeper. WOOH. we rock sah. oh anyways, I'm not going to blog much since mum's gonna be home most of the weekdays and yes, the computer is way off our reach. so maybe i can update in school or use my crazy confidante, sufiah to help me. HAH, credits to my sister for helping me to change my blogskin, since YES, im an ALL ROUNDED IDIOT or so. okays, every Saturday,I'm going to join the class gang and study at BK at ws, every afternoon of that day, since we all need each other for good grades. YES. one for all, all for one. mugging is going to start tomorrow, OR should i say, STUDYING is going to start tomorrow. cant wait to get back to school to meet everyone and cant wait to gear up to study since the June holidays were spent idling at home, distracted by the great TECHNOLOGY. so well, I'm so ready. and yes I'm going to get that 9As or maybe 8As and a B. hahah. owkaes, id better run off now to bed since we all need a fresh head start tomorrow, so,
GD LUCK FLUGGERY PEOPLE.

2008-06-20T13:08:00.002+08:00

RANDOM STAKEOUT

on the way home from tuition

yummy snacks to fill up my boredom
say hi to sufiah!

& now say hi to nadrah!

this is home.

2008-06-20T12:30:00.002+08:00

STOP BEING AN ALL-ROUNDED IDIOT
okays im back, everyone miss me? yes. im now currently downloading mozilla fox and also the new version of windos messenger. call me and IT IDIOT before people, but now dun, cos it would pull down my morals even more. haha, okaes, im feeling much better, under the moon for awhile this few days. so i shall now rant about yesterday weird, interesting journey.

THURSDAY 190608
i was preety much bored sitting at home so i went down to raudhah's house and finally finished my SS HOMEWORK, yes, i "referred" to her work for awhile. and well, we talked while doing so and after that we headed to central to buy BB TEA and decide to walk pass our school. we did and i so did not feel the bonding at all. and we walked pass greenview and then i had the MOST SUPERB IDEA OF ALL. i decided that we go to sufiah's house, so i sms her and said that i needed her house address to update my folio. do i have a folio? NOO. haah, and we walked to her house and crapped along the way.

SUFIAH'S HOUSE
it was super funny. we found her block and we looked up at her house but we did not expect it to be her house cos she said her house was facing loyang secondary school. LOLS, but it WAS her house. it was about 4pm at when we reached there. so we called her and YES she was SHOCKED! haha, we should get paid doing this. so we talked and we felt that sufiah might just fall out from the window since she was bending almost 90degrees. me and rau's head were like aching although sufiah was only living at the 3rd storey. we bid her farewell and decided to conquer the west area of ws and that is at ELIAS AREA. i wanted to disturb umairah and nizam but they were so high up above, then if like that, moving onnnn. so we took the bus and went to nadrah's house.

NADRAH'S HOUSE
i sms her and told her to call rau' hp as it was " an emergency". she called and we were waving to her at her window. thank god she was living at the 2nd storey. we ran up to her house since we both needed the toilet. HAHA, and after that we got drinks from her and talked to her. it was fun. her house was like super clean, the floor adn the ceiling reflected the colour white. i had a vision that the ceiling was actually black in colour but as the floor was super white, the ceiling became whitte too. hahah. anyways, we wanted to meet shazni, whose house was just a few blocks away. nadrah got change with her scarf and sweater and guess what, the cutest thing ever happened.

NADRAH BROUGHT HER SCOOTER OUT TO PLAY..

SHAZNI'S HOUSE
we all took turns to play and headed to shazni's house after buying snacks from the shop. ahah, shazni stayed at the 8th floor and we shouted to her. i could see her hand waving frantically out of her window.. she came down and we updated each other briefly. i was super happy to see shazni, she's back from LA! finally! we played the scooter and after that shazni and nadrah sent us both adventures back to the busstop where we took the bus and headed home.

AT HOME
haha, i got scolded shortly since i didnt wear scarf when i went out and i came back later than my mum. lols, sigh. its only around pasir ris what. sigh. anyways, I ENJOYED MYSELF!!! and i did biology today. loving it yaww. so now im left with a few questions from physics and maybe alittle of maths.

TODAY
i raged the house. clean every speck of dust in every inch of the rooms. and mum is going to treat me, it better be an ipod or a laptop or new clothes or swensen. LOL. i had fun yesterday. seeing all four of us together makes me smile like a donkey. ahah.

RANTS OF ME
well, nothing much is hungering in my heart now. what im hungering is the o levels and teh start of the soon 24/7 mugging. WOOO, gonna love it. and rau's right, next year, i can finally let go of EVERYTHING, maybe not now, but soon in a few months time, yessah, this so rocks big time. till then, im gonna do my DSA application form for MJC. lets hope i get through yeah?

2008-06-18T16:37:00.005+08:00

be back when i learn to master the art of loving right again

2008-06-18T10:59:00.005+08:00

Who was your last text from?

shazni

Where was your default pic taken?

at home

Your relationship status?

Im single.

Does your crush like you back?

erm. i dunnoe?

What is your current mood?

lazy,bored and a tinch of stupidity

What's your brother's name?

azli

What's your favourite colour?

Red,brown,blue and purple

Have a crazy side?

YESSSSSAH

Ever had a near death experience?

Nah. I dont waaaaant. Haha.

Something you do alot?

dream

Angry at anyone?Currently?

yes

Do you wanna see somebody right now?

YES.

When was the last time you cried?

if im not wrong, O LEVEL' RESULTS 07

Who would you do anything for?Seriously anything?

Family and friends

What is the one thing you notice about the opposite sex first?

hotness

Where's your ex at and what is he doing?

dunnoe, dun care

Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?

Yessssssss, hehe.

What are you eating or drinking at the moment?

glass of purified water

Do you speak any other languages?

Yeah, im bilingual.

How much money is in your wallet?

countless cos there's none.

Describe your life in one word?

AMAZING

If you are a guy. Have you been circumcise?

(Skips cos im not a guy.)

What are you thinking about right now?

whether i should trust my feelings or instincts

What should you be doing right now?

Finishing up my holiday hw :\

What is your favourite memory?

GRAD NIGHT 07

Who was the last person you told I Love You to?

shazni!

Who was the last person who yelled at you?

meera?

Do you act differently around the person you like?

truthfully, a little.

What is your natural hair colour?

dark black

Who was the last person to make you smile?

sufiah

2008-06-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

"finding the way to you"

2008-06-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

I DON'T DARE TO DOUBT MY FEELINGS ONCE AGAIN.
yesterday
okays, here i am again and no, im not giving a proper update since i don't think there is a need to have one. well, actually, today had been a great day, a day that i had wished it would come. many events that happened today just made my day. simply happy i should say. well, first of all, im happy that i could wake up at 7.30am and well, ate and got ready for school. even had time to slack. well, at 10.30am, exactly. i waited at nizam's busstop for him and sufiah, since i wanted to pass sufiah my diaries to read and also to get my hat and my gift too. so i waited like some gundu for those two late people to come. some small kindergarten kids walked pass me and look at me at one kind. i smiled okay but my charm didnt enriched them at all. they stared back at me and i knew why. my music was blaring out of my earphones. not just any music, it was THE USED, screaming in my ears. sorry little kiddos. HAHA, so funny. well, finally sufiah came and we talked for awhile and then, nizam came. mon coeur a crié et j'ai soupiré. well, we talked for awhile. sufiah bought him this cute moneybank that looks like a soccer boot. and we all started talking about OH-so-random STUFF. for a minute or maybe more than that, i was stonning. because i had completely no idea what they were talking about and i wasnt listening to them. my mind was like somwhere else, flying around. and i feel like my soul just left my body and there alyah was staring into thin air. so when sufiah looks at me, i just add some effects by commenting abit. haha, actually i had no idea what to say, seriously. and i couldnt stop fidgeting. i have no idea why,. probably the weather...or something else. we parted and me and BM walked to school.

COUNCILLOR MEETING
nothing much that is important for us sec 4s to hear. so me and BM did our own thing and after that we waited for LIL MISS, nadrah to decide whether to go LP OR WS. in the meantime, we sat at the pavillion and chatted things that i learned alot of things from. so finaaly, i won in the scissors-paper-stone thingy and we all headed to KFC WS and chatted till dunoe what time. we gathered our money and bought the BUDDY MEAL. after that we walked nadrah home and then me and BM sailed home.

KUNGFU PANDA
watched that with my family at TM at night. the show was pretty awesome. funny,super random, yet it teaches an individu to respect themselves and have the confidence that they have the power to make changes. COOL, HUH. okaes, i am soo super lazy to update. closing down my blog maybe on 16 july. my burfdae is like two days before.
SO REMEMBER my burfdae: 14 JULY.

TODAY
nothing much happen. have tuition today so like..BUMMER, oh well, at least, FINALLY! can meet rau. lol, i sound like a small kid, yearning for LOLLIPPPPOOPP! haha, and finally SHAZNI IS BACK HOME!!!! wooh, wonder what she bought for me... hahah.

O LEVELS
cant help but to talk about it, its one damn dream that i can make come true, and i so, will do my extreme best. WATCH ME.

2008-06-16T17:54:00.003+08:00

THE STARS ARE SHINNING BETTER TONIGHT

okay, im having a great time now, thanks to how im feeling now, thanks to that person. HUAHAHA, okay, i finally finally put myself into better shoes, and im through with things already, i mean, with the past.. and im loving life now. there's a new meaning in it.

one word: AWESOME.

2008-06-15T18:11:00.004+08:00

CHANGING THE TONE OF YOUR SIGH

okay, sufiah just confessed that she loves me and loves to read my blog. im here on not a daily basis but a random basis. you people should see the state im in. my hair is like all over the place and the colour of my clothes dont match at all. my phone has been preety silent today since i have stop messaging people or even wait for people to sms since my smses are like 13000 over plusplus. shoot me. OUCH, it hurts. i seriously cant wait to get back to school and see everyone, i miss everyone's faces! ALL OF YOU! haha, and i miss myself. having the drive to study. and i need my mentor, shazni, who would be back tomoro! woooh. hmms, what to say next. im super random now. cant wait for O LEVEL TO END. super exciting things are goona happen. please happen. and yes, cant wait to get out of secondary school. its time this wooman fly high and away. i need a new environment. and yes, i need money and bigger brains. and i wanna be taller! pleaseplease. lol, im whining here, and moaning. cheryl is right. i do moan, sigh and whatever that is to make you feel irritated. can someone please put on the rainbow infront of me? can someone please crooon me a song. can someone please kill me? hahah, yes, end my misery sitting at home doing maths the whole day. i think all of this is worthy... and i cant wait for the december holidays. BOY, am i planning sooo many things. WOOH, okaes people, im becoming more SIIAOW. okay. bye.

can we meet on wednesday night?

2008-06-14T17:04:00.004+08:00

HIDING BEYOND THE TRUTH
nothing INCREDIBLE happened today. no flying mousetraps, no flying superheroes, just me flying in my head, making good and bad choices all day long. the good choices, well, they are something that some would rejoice,like me. while the bad ones are mainly procastination. ill close down my blog sooon and make a new one that will embed a tittle like nomoreolevelmugger.blogspot.com. every inch of me just wanna hit the jam breaks and fly out of the smashing window and lie dead on the floor.. why? because dying is way much better than reality, facing every second of it. majestic it may be for some. but i think the main thing here is to love everyone, YES Y-O-U, and not hold back on anything and to keep my smses low since its over 1000smses already. pretty scary huh but yeah, thats life, S-U-P-E-R. i think the more i type the more my post is gonna sound weird and weirder by the second, minute, whoever. currently, im missing all my classmates especially SYAFIQAH, i need a miaow to make my day. i need a hug from willis to forget that im losing my voice. i need to kiss huibin and tell her she is the best duck in the whole world. i need to box meera to tell her that i love her. i need to run to shazni and slap her butt to scold her for being away from me. i need to spank nadrah for not smsing me. i need to cut off haoshan chubby cheeks and i need to put flesh on cheryl's legs, maybe from mine. and i need to dye my hair red and have 5 earholes by end of the year. best of all, i wanna hear your voice again be it on the telephone, voicemail or whatever to make me smile. and i wanna peck on rau's cheek to tell her that she has been a damn great strong girl. and i wanna say, i feel like stopping now. i love you all. oh crap, im getting weirder. oh and i miss so many people: namie, syaf, nabzee, sufiah and like so much more. i cant even count. okae, this is really a goodbye.

2008-06-13T15:28:00.006+08:00

its gonna hurt when it heals too

2008-06-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

how crazy can one get?

i think i just answered your question.

camwhore never failed to bring out the little kid in you,

nope stephanie, im not talking about you.

2008-06-12T22:43:00.001+08:00

hunnay,

you're worth my $30.

2008-06-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

OUTING WOOOH.

I ROCK MORE THAN SOLID GOLD

2008-06-12T22:20:00.008+08:00

CHALET PHOTOS

" I AM SUCH A GREAT PHOTOGRAPHER"

2008-06-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

YOU THOUGHT IT LEFT, IT NEVER DID.
i just left it for awhile to pick it up later. i know like you said " girls suppose to be selfish".

HEY SEXXAYS.
okaey, im back and here to update with such galore and passion that no one can resist the temptation of updating the blog. okae, shut up no alyah. im here to update briefly on the chalet and more about today's outing in search of ZQ PROM CLOTHES.

CHALET 8-10 JUNE,
well, it wAS AWESOME. because my request of having steamboat was fulfilled by my mum. and i had a great time with cuzzins and those of my friends who came, like raudhah and huibin and haoshan. i love the gossiping or maybe i should say the TALK with fee at night since we couldnt sleep that lasted till 4am+++. and i love the continous breakfast from macdonalds for two mornings straight. and i love flying kites with howie and haoshan, relaxing at the beach with them. cleaning the place, eating the food, playing with ali, meeting my sis TPJC friends, especially syazwan, who my mum likes alot. and i love sleeping when dawn has already come. i love chalets. and im glad my sis is happy since she didnt have a great SWEET 16. so now she ahd a SWEET 17. cool, huh. and yes, im sad that many couldnt come, like him, and yes my dear chicken, cheryl. STTOPPPID. haha, but overall, it was awesome. thanks for coming my deardear friends. you know who you are..

TODAY 120608
OMGARD. today was like awesome. i woke up at 7am and got ready. by 8.30am i was out of the house. finally tried on the new mascara and eye shadow. WOOH, i love blending. and well, i met zq, dom and tricia at WS MACS. had breakfast and waited for huibin, steph, ky, yixuan, haoshan and cheryl to arrive. they finally did and cheryl look OVER-EXTRA with her so-lookable- porm clothes. purple colour it was. HAHAH. so we took the train to paya lebar, at 10.15am.

CITY PLAZA
the building look like it needed serious reconstruction and well, it looked like a typical HDB FLAT. nevertheless, we were on the roads to find ZQ PROM CLOTHES, because we know that he wont have any time to buy his clothes after this. the place was half-open since it was only 11am. and well, we walked around, got some ideas and took bus 70 to SUNTEC CITY and we went in to TOPSHOP, G2000 and well,so much more. but we couldnt find the right clothes since everything was either too formal or too informal. we walked to marina square and went to MINITOONS, where i fed myself with sweeeets and candy! yummy. we walked and windowshopped around there and headed to citylink. walked summore and i fell in love with all the dresses. buy me all people.

WE SPLIT UP.
the gurls wanted to head to chinatown while the guys wanted to go to BUGIS. so we separated and i fell in love with chinatown! it was awesome and shopping was TO DIE FOR. and the THIS FASHION was super max. and everything was just too die for. lalalla. and well, we decided to eat first and there was just one malay stall selling nasi padang at the hawker centre. as you noe, im not much of a tradisional malay eater, and not much of a malay-liker, i ate and the food wasnt that bad. and the rest ate DUCK FOOD. huibin didnt eat maybe she got akward seeing the rest eating her kind, or maybe she lost her sense of eating. HAHAH. well, we shopped more and we separated. steph, haoshan and tricia headed first to chinatown and left for bugis while we walked down chinatown, i think it was my second time there, the first was in primary school on a heritage tour i think. guess what, my shoe was coming off, i mean the sole. and i searcehed high and low for new pair of slippers. and i got it for $5! and i shopped around this fashion for a veryvery long time and finally bought a dress for $30. which i reallyreally like and i bought $5 watches for me and bro. bought 7-11 big gulp and headed back to BUGIS.

BUGIS
we reached and met the guys who dunoe how to give CORRECT DIRECTIONS. lol, we got a bit lost and zq finally bought his clothes and we were at 77TH STREET when dominic suddenly came out from the changing room with white blazer and i was taken aback. he looked GREAT! seriously, luike omygard, sexxaaay. haha, and well we bought stuffs and headed back to ws. everyone was super tired. i was. so badly. my legs ache.

WS
bougnt hot fudges and walked back home, reaching the doorstep at about 6.50pm. and haoshan smsed me wrongly and i wanted to laugh, HAHAH, since STC was at the ws macs. ehhee. wells, my cuzzin is here so i gave him my ice cream. LOLS. tried on my dress and i love it! woooh. andim super tired. dun even feel like walking.

TALKED AND WE TALKED,
in the bus, we chatted and i feel, many are starting to hate us, my class, to be specific and it might get worst in term 3. i wun say names or say anything more because whats most important is to concentrate and aim well for the O LEVELS. everyone should stop bickering about each other, you and me. i just feel, you're right, we are super noisy and we dun pledge up to the name 4/8 adn we have never felt high-all-mighty just ebcause we are 4/8. everyone is equal. who cares about the number of subjects each of us are taking? it all comes down to how well is your RESULTS, and i think we should all focus on whats more important. apologies to all who we hurt unwillingly and yes, we are noisy, because i guess, thats who we are.

HMM
now you noe how it feels like, waiting for someone who you dun even know whether he or she might turn up back in your life. it sucks rigght? been there, done that.

LIFE LIKE YOU KNOW IT.
mugging begins tomoro. need to set my priorities right. dun blame me for not updating. LOLS.
BYE FLUGGERY PEOPLE.

WHAT IM CHANTIING TODAY
i can spell out his name in big fonts over and over again in my whole blog.
876876876876, sigh.
oh, forgot the 'a'. haha.

2008-06-11T17:21:00.003+08:00

I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

-LP

TAG REPLIES

namira: HEY HUNNAY.

albin: so you remembered me huh?

nabilah: L-O-L

humairah: hahah, need i say more?

sufiah: YOU SIAOW MIAOW UH????

WHAT IM CHANTING TODAY,
3838383833838383838383838383838383838383838383838383838383838.
thirtyeight.

2008-06-11T17:04:00.003+08:00

STOP PROCASTINATING BEHIND YOUR MUMMY'S BACK KIDDOS.
okae, actually, im referring to myself. so today i spent the whole afternoon digging out all my books and papers and papers and MORE PAPERS, till it form a big HEAP OF PAPERS? GET IT? P-A-P-E-R-S. oakey, now because of all the wordy stuffs, ive gotten crazy and just feel like eating them up with a bowl of milk. Y-U-M-M-Y. im like super lazy to update my blog. isit because i have no time? or isit because im too lazy? or isit because im an IT IDIOT? NO, the reason is because, (drum rolling) i have no I-D-E-A. whywhywhy? maybe because my head is under the blue moon that is never gonna appear. and maybe because the sky can never go gold and silver at the same time. such occurences will not happen but my blog shall never be the case. i shall UPDATE! about the chalet and tomoro's outing to CHINATOWN, BUGIS, ORCHARD,VIVO. as you can see, my dear friends, like dom and zq need a little advice on how and where to pick the BEST PROM CLOTHES, so step in us girls to help them. OKIEDOKIE. so remember meet at 9am at WS MACS for breakfast. oh hell why am i telling the whole world. okaey, whatever. DANG, if it was me it was referring to me in those words, ill be like m-elt-ing. but i dun think its me, maybe its her. L-O-L. do you think i bother and still care. no on the outside. Y-E-S. in the bloddydeepdownsodeepdownyoucantfindheartyhole. okaey? gettdit you fluggery people. LOLS. and i so wish that O LEVELS would be over. the waiting is killing and i havent even start studying and even mug and even finish assignments. DANG, am i dead? yesh, soon. and dun you come telling me im smart what, no need to study. YOUR HEAD UH. hahah, oake, this post is getting crappier, i should better head o-f-f from the computer, before i start cursing at people or even write more CRAP on this blog. H-A-AHA-A.

a proper update will be up soon.

DEAR HANNAH,
i will act as if i dun care. i will trust upon my instincts and let hope die. because sumtimes, if hope is good, fate will die. hannah, i dun want to run back a-g-a-i-n. it will be the what? third time? it could be even worst than before. oh dear, i so need to get out ffrom thinking like an average 10 year old kid.

sufiah, let hope decide. HOHO.

2008-06-10T12:32:00.007+08:00

SOMETHING FOR HUIBIN.

HAPPY 16TH BURFDAY TAN HUIBIN.
DEAR HUIBIN,

you rock gold.

you rock our world

you rock JACkSON 5

you rock the duck world

you rock meimei world

you rock crab's world

you rock elmo's world

and best of all,

you rock my world.

thanks for being there.

YOU ROCK SHIT.

i noe you noe that i noe that everyone will noe that you noe that you yourself noe you love your pics. and i noe too.

im back from the great 3 days 2 nights chalet. yesh miss me people. shall update soon.

and guess what, 6 more months to you. WOOH. im so gonna mug like shit and make my dreams come true. WOOH.

2008-06-07T15:37:00.002+08:00

WILL BE GONE
FROM
8JUN TO 10JUN.
CHALET AT COSTA SANDS.
WOOOOOOOH.

weird, but you were always there.

2008-06-06T22:15:00.001+08:00

HAHAH, WOOOH.

2008-06-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

2008-06-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

I LOOK AND I STARED AND I SMILED. oh no.
okaes people. its time for the biggest update in this week! woohoo, get your eyes and eyes ready for the most, exclusive hot shot story of the day, ME. *standing ovation. lols. okaes, finally, after much inspiration from many people like SUFIAH, especially and of course huibin, i shall update my blog.

YESTERDAY, SINGAPORE POLY VISIT.
i woke up in the morning, and SWITHERED, because i had no intention of waking up from my cosy warm bed. well, dragged myself out and managed to straighten my fringe using adelyn OHSO great hair-straightener. anyways, took the bus and met the gang at MACS at 8.30am to eat breakfast. i came in palms while steph came in slippers, with school uniform. nice. and we took the mrt, 25 of us to DOVER, which is like 22 stops. me and my dear cheryl read GF MAGAZINE. yes! i finally got it! and wells, we did some of the surveys and we both had the same resulting answers, CUTE! and we played denise PSP. finally we reached SP and gave ourselves our own tour. im so lazy to update you on what we saw but let me tell you, i went for the course on CHEMICAL LIFE SCIENCES, and i dont like polytechnic. im not being judgemental here, but knowing myself well enough, i cannot imagine myself sitting in the laboratory burning plastics for instance, id rather head on to JC and MUG, have good fun while wearing school uniform, thats the best part. i dont want to wear scarf for the rest of the 3 years . cruel me. i love wearing school uniform, i feel so kiddy and all. HAHA.

wells, we made hilarious jokes on the way as usual. and i love 4/8 can? after that some of us took the mrt together to go to SIMEI to eat at BANQUET.okaey, me and charlene grew bonkers in the train while rau slept while standing. and yes, we made so much noise, we became the centre of attraction. cool? yesh, adn huibin joined in and at SIMEI MRT, we parted. zq, dom, yx, darius, leon, steph, me, huibin, haoshan and shereen went to BANQUET TO EAT.

BANQUET GALORE
we ate and me and steph were stil hungry. DOM was kind enough to give us money to buy YONG TAU FOO. it was already 7.30pm and we headed to TM to looko for the guys PROM CLOTHES. well, not buy but check out the clothes there.

TM
we walked and laughed and played hide-and-seek because we didnt want leon to follow us. he was like everywhere with his fon talkign to his mummy. me and darius had fun imitating him. HAHA, mummy here, mummy there. okaey, lalalla. SEE I FORGOT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ALREADY. WELLS, we walked around and finally headed back home with ZQ and YX. im super short btween them okaey? well, we sat and waited for the bus 81 to come and chatted and make some GOOFY CHEERS. and we played cooking mama 2 at ZQ DS and after that we went our separate ways. the day was fun. i LOVE YOU GUYS.

TODAY
I WOKE UP TERRIBLY LATE! all because of last nightlah. shant say since you all will start rolling on the floor and laugh at me. wells, i woke up at 7.45am and i had to be in school at what? 8am? yeah. so i quickly got changed and headed to school. thank god my dad has a car. and as i stepped into the class, everyone was directing me to sit right at the back of the class. you knoW why? they left an empty seat beside haoshan for STC, and i got super hyper in clss crooning at every word. HAHA. yeah, and STC didnt come. LOLS. poor haoshan. and mrs.see joined in too. HAHA. maths rocks because everyone got high, actually the whole class contributed to the noise. well at 11.30am we stopped maths and we had the buffet.

THANK MRS.SEE FOR THE BUFFET!
the buffet rocks alot. and mrs.ang and mrs.koh kids came and had fun. WOOH.

GTG.
till then, stay safe.
&& are you back yet?

2008-06-05T22:21:00.005+08:00

DEAD IS THE NEW EGO
you can wait for another week to get an update on this blog.
im AUDACIOUSLY DORMANT,
and yes,
SWITHERING.

2008-06-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

SHALL COME BACK SOON.

2008-06-03T21:10:00.005+08:00

AND I WANNA BE HIS ALARM CLOCK.

its the time of the month where I'm swooning because er, ya, i wouldn't wanna comment much but sorry huibin i left you because i was in a complete daze, busy idling whats in my phone. haha, and having a MAJOR BLONDE MOMENT. haaha. oh well, i seriously wanna shut down my blog and just sit down at my study table 24/7 revising for O LEVEL. but sometimes, people, humans like us make mistakes, some maybe humble, some may not. i think mine is a 50/50 % deal. i don't know I'm just so bored with updating blogs and all and i just want to communicate with others via sms only, like what I'm doing now. maybe ill update later in this week. I'm just too bored about blogging. not that i dun love it anymore, but u know, maybe sooner or later i have to go on hiatus to get ready for the O LEVELS. sometimes i just wanna knock my head on the wall and plead to GOD to let me bypass the O LEVEL and go straight to MJC. okaes, i shouldnt be rambling continously. its quite annoying. and OMBH, I'm not stopping.

WHERE OR WHERE?

where's hidayat and sufiah? they are suppose to be back like NOWW.

ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY.

haha, he thinks I'm A DUCK, LEE HUIBIN, when its suppose to be Y-O-U. haha, and he makes me laugh. okae, so random.

TAG REPLIES.
ky: HAHA, ya, who took the pics huh?
namie: i love you and you have my second vote.
shazni: HAHA, hey! i miss you and dun start a fight with nabilah, i dun want to see her lose.
faez: waitlah auntie.
a.n: you also another auntie. HAHA.
nabilah:please, i was just warming up.

& im waiting for your reply... patiently...

2008-06-01T18:50:00.005+08:00

tired faces

me and bestie bestie.

HAHA, sexaay.

some people just post greatly for the camera

YAY!

FINDING NEBO.LALALAA.

& WE ROCK YEAH.

2008-06-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

ALL OF A SUDDEN MY VISION BECAME SO CLEAR

okae, yes im back again, and no im not going to talk about political issues as i had wanted to do previously. well, basically i havent had time to update as i've been pretty busy, nothing shocking about that huh. okay let me tell you about yesterday FINDING NEBO AMAZING RACE. *and kuan yong goes lalalalala.

FINDING NEBO SATURDAY.

I woke up at about 3am and forgot to turn on the water heater,hence i drenched myself with cold water. -.-'. anyways my dad and me went to fetch kuanyong, shazni and zhenqian and yixuan after 4am since the first bus to come is at 5.30am. so after fetching all of them, we went to DOWNTOWN macs and ate breakfast.let me tell you, the night life is pretty wild. you can see so many malay people acting homeless and walking around with weird hairstyles and costumes and yes, smoking. and they blared out their music like nobody's business. and we saw a group of PK and we heard them talking about why one of them didnt push the old man down and run away. weird huh. wells, at about 5.30am we walked to the MRT to try and catch the first train. and along the way yixuan was SUPER HIGH, to the max. shouting like some idiotic penquin. and we got on the 2nd train ride. we got busy playing cooking mama 2 and tried to ignore yixuan's growing shouts and wild hand movements. we reached THE CATHAY at about let me see, 6am? yeah.

THE CATHAY

there were 4 groups awaiting for the registration at 8am. and we sat down and played more DS games. more groups came along and finally we were ready to register. we all got changed into the ORANGE NEBO SHIRT and we got our passport that has 6 checkpoints for us to finish and in each checkpoint there were two activities for us to finish. one is we had to do it there while the 2nd one we had to answer questions about NTUC. so at 8am everyone was already dialing anybody's number and asked them for the answers. i even asked my lil brother. im sure everyone were like whatehell waking them up on a saturday morning. LOL, but really, to all those who helped, thanks.

the race started pretty late. one grp was disqualified as they were seen running across the road and taking the first bus 174 that arrived when the GOH havent even arrived yet. sad huh.too enthuasastic. anyways once the whistle was blown, we all ran like mad to the opposite MRT. it was hilarious and all of us were like screaming our lungs out and KY said it was the best feeling ever, yes! like totally. and our first checkpoint was the LIM BO SENG MEMORIAL.

LIM BO SENG MEMORIAL

we ran to the WAR MEMORIAL!!! lols. we had to run to the other side of the street to the LIM BO SENG MEMORIAL and to tell you the truth, it was the worst run in my life. im no runner so to run fast its really tiring as i have no stamina though i remembered running this year 2.4km without stopping LOLS. anyways we had to answer a few answers and the question was

Q: YOUNG NTUC HAVE A BASE OF 150,000 MEMBERS.TRUE OR FALSE?
answer: it said on the board a base of 155,000. so, FALSE.
correct answer: true. ass right? the person said thats their answer. stupid.

ACTIVITY 1

we had to slide across a distance with our bum and our hands. it was freaking hard but funny uh. and after that we ran to catch the train to the next grueeling task at BOTANIC GARDEN, by then it was 10.30am.

BOTANICAL GARDEN-CHECKPOINT 2

this was the worst checkpoint ever. we had to find the ECO GARDEN and we went in the BOTANICAL GARDEN via the other gate when we actualy had to go in through the other end. and because of that we had to walked and run and jog to the other end to reach the ECO GARDEN, the biggest section in the botanical garden. we found our checkpoiNT and we had to find and take photos of three plants that were shown to us the name and how it looks like, which was terrible, there were like a million and one plants in the ECO GARDEN, so we searched high and low like some mad woman. we saw many gropus sitting down and talking. i think they gave up like mad. and well, finally we found the 3 plants and after one hour we headed for the next checkpoint.

YOUTH PARK-CHECKPONT 3

it started raining. and i jumped over many benches which was like super cool. haha, crazy right? i was inspired by STEP UP 2,one of the scenes. LOLS. and well, we had to guess the total amount of 5 food prices found at FAIRPRICE. lol. adn we guess about $9 but the person said, our first guess $8 ws better, like whaaat lah. and after that,we ran in puddles of water, shouting that finally we are heading to the EAST, our 'territory'.

SIMEI EAST POINT.-CHECKPOINT 4

we had to right down 5 household items from yet again, FAIRPRICE. and we got it fast and right. saw dennison and mr.singh with wife. we ran to catch the train to tampines mall.

TAMPINES MALL-CHECKPONT 5

we had to say a cheer to 3 pedestrains and we used our class cheer but had to changed the words to talk about NTUC. its strange, they said that we will bel earning more about spore during this race but no, we didnt. we learn that we have to go FAIRPRICE and support it. the guy who heard us shouting loudly gave us only 8 points? like we shouted? and no matter what we headed to pasir ris park.

PASIR RIS PARK.-CHECKPOINT 6

we had to go to the playground site but those who didnt know much about the park thought that they had to go to the desinated place via the entrance at DOWNTOWN. haha, so we kinda got a lead. well, we didnt trust IRIS, yes huibin, i finally know what's IRIS and not WHOSE IRIS. haha, we walked and reached before the bus came and had to do a task that required us to piggyback each other. each person has to at least piggy back someone. we had to do 25 laps and it was super hilarious. it started off with me piggyback shazni for a few laps, followed by ys piggyback zq and they fell, ky and zq, shazni and zq. and me and ky, which was funny. ky kept cheerin me one and i wanted him to shut up. HHAHA, we finished it for 3 mins which was an awesome timing said the marshalls. and we headed back to D'MARQUEE.

we fooled a group on the bus and we told them we had to take bus 3 to tampines. one of them said that bus 3 could go to downtown.TOO BAD, we thought faster and we didnt win, there were like hundreds of others that had arrived earlier than us. and we took our goodie bags and sat down at the grass, hearing some screamo band that had a sucky lead singer but a great guitarists and drummer. he even said "fucking fun" where there were like many parents there. haha, and we sat and waited for the lucky draw but we didnt win. many called us, like lynn, who miss me so much and well, we talk for awhile and after that we headed home.

me and shazni went to central at about 4.30pm to buy some food and drinks and we walked home. and i didnt want to leave her, i just wanted to rattle to her and yakyakyakyak to her, its fun talking to her. and the best thing is that, i can never see myself fighting with her. she like rocks my world. HAHA, and after that she took her bus and i went home with sore muscles.

it was a great experience and i would definitely like to do it again.
awwwww.

2008-05-30T19:47:00.002+08:00

SUDDEN GASP AND A DRAGGY SMILE

i have a sudden urge to talk about political issues today but time is such a constrain for me because tomorrow i have to be up and ready by 4.30am, yes i repeat, 4.30am. tomorrow is the day where we are going to take part in the NEBO CHALLENGE. yep. and of course, I'm super excited so cheer for me if you see any familiar faces running down the road. HAHA. okay, let me see, this week had been a hectic , fun, free week and yes, the holidays have just begun. so much for the word holiday, not even 1% of it shall i use to daydream. OMBH, i just did. HAHAH. oh well, i think i should go off to bed now, dun want to have droopy eyes tomorrow yeah. till then, take care everyone, stay close and be nice.

i didn't expect to see him at central, moreso even to see him because its been a long time Ive seen him.his gaze and warm smile, reminded me of how i wish things had worked out well between us.

how i wish.
how i wish.
how i wish.

they said wishes do come true, but i think i have to wish harder.
never mind, after the O LEVEL, let my wish come true..
please?

im pushing many people away because i need to be mean to stay focus in the O LEVEL. i need to have a clear mind. sorry people but its only 4 months. bear with me. HAHA.

2008-05-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

EMBEDDED CRIMSON RED LILACS

oh OMBH, today had been such a nice warm bubbly hot tiring day, to sum up everything. im experiencing MAJOR LAZINESS to update my blog because well, i have no idea. there were no symptoms at all to this so-called-suppose to be a MILD DISEASE. its not contagious and its not healthy as many of you should no. and as i ramble on, it looks like this is going to be a long post i guess. besides that, im feeling like a counsellor now. i have no idea why im feeling so. its strange to feel such UBER craziness, especially when its me the craziness is referring to. lately, i went around blogs, searching for an ideal post to talk about and still, no doubt i have not found any good tittles to rattle on. but theres one thing that struck my mind lately. and you guess it WRONG, no its not the crazy,fanatical screams for a guy, like you-know-who. its more of the O LEVEL term im inspired to talk about. its a great subject to ramble on as its the most important risk in your life that you are taking as either a 16 or 17 eyar old kid. yes, i repeat, KID. i mean, this days, most people are dressing up as if they are a decade older than what they are suppose to look like. don't get me wrong, age and clothes really dont match. but if you go overboard, isn't that worth a subject to talk about? okay, i probably should stop digressing like MANY people i know of who are so full of DIGRESSSMENT, IF there is such a word.

O LEVELS, AND THE GALORE OF IT.

basically, we had a fair share of experience of what the O LEVEL might look like, might feel like right after we sat for our MT O LEVEL PAPER on monday. yes, everyone comes out of the freezing room with different reactions, either good or bad. and can say, i did come out with a smile. a sheepish one of course. well,anyways, i probably would compare the O's to ELECTROCUTION of people. basically both ideas work the same. we are going to feel pressurized by the waiting of the O's or being electrocuted. and when the waiting is finally over, some would have a 10mins of HUURAAY, while some continue to duel on making sure that their answers are super right. which makes all of us scared. "is my answer right? or not..." this continues to ponder in our minds because one grave mistake can decide whether you earned your A or less than that. its a preety exciting journey but it has many downfalls to it. some might breakdown in due time while some just shruggs it off saying that 143 days left is more than enough time. everyone iS PRONE TO PROCASTINATION. you and i cant deny that fact.well, once the electrocution is over, the person dies. now this part then and hence i wouldnt further compare it with the O's because it would be a weird talk to deal about.

I'm not sure why I'm typing in such a manner, not to say that its bad or so, i mean, i guess its good to talk about the reality of life rather than crapping about your everyday life that everyone doesn't bother unless you're hot, super and popular. now THAT, would it be wise for you to cram up your blog posts with your life 24/7. well, i think I'll post more about life around the general crowd because i think its very interesting to talk about them and have our share of opinions or so.

like everyone, i do hope ill do well for the O's. theres so much competition and yes, we might even start or break friendships because everyone seems so busy and cooped up with studies that they somehow forget to have fun. I'm not saying that all O level's candidates face this situation but i think many do. okay well, i think that's all for now, till then, use your June holidays wisely, and don't start a relationship now, its crucial to have a main focus on your future.

thanks for reading.
SEE YA.

2008-05-29T18:08:00.004+08:00

a great friend of mine once said.

you cant abandon your feelings for the burden you feel and you cant abandon the burden felt for your feelings.

DEAR NEIGHBOUR UNDER THE BLOCK.

cheer up yeah? & remember that hope, no matter how big or small, it is good and worth waiting. and you know right, i realy love the emptiness inside me. shall fill it up with studies. WOOH.

2008-05-28T18:48:00.002+08:00

YO ALYAH!
HUIBIN JUS WOKE UP HERE AND IM BORED!!

This is the song
La la la la Elmo's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Elmo's song.
La la la La la la la, la
La la la La la la la, la
He loves to sing, La la la la, Elmo's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Elmo's song.
He wrote the music.
He wrote the words.
That's Elmo's song.

This is the song,
La la la la Big Bird's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Big Bird's song.
La la la La la la la, la
La la la La la la la, la
I love to sing, La la la la, Big Bird's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Big Bird's song.
I love the music.
I love the words.
That's Big Bird's song!

This is the song,
La la la la Snuffy's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Snuffy's song.
La la la, La la la la.
La la la la la. La la la, La la la la.
La la la la la.
I love to sing, La la la la, Snuffy's song.
La la la la, La la la la, Snuffy's song.
He wrote the music.
We wrote the words.
That's Snuffy's,
that's Big Birds
That's Elmo's song!

Oh, Yeah!

THX FOR UR PW ALYAH!! ((:

2008-05-28T09:02:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna put on my old blue jeans
I'm gonna walk outta here into the street
Would you put up resistance
Would it make a difference
Would you know the real me
Me and my old blue jeans

2008-05-28T08:38:00.004+08:00

CAN BORED BE SPELT WITH A BIG GIGANTIC B?
LAYER 1:
ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Nuralyah Razali
birth Date: 140792
Current Status: Single

LAYER 2:
ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage: MALAY
Fears: waking up feeling empty
My Weaknesses: EMO over small stuffs.

LAYER 3:
YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My Thoughts First Waking Up: am i still sick?
My Bedtime: 12am ++
My Most Missed Memory:seeing him, flying to LA.

LAYER 4:
MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke: coke, uhhhh.
Single or Group Dates: Single, duh.
Cappuccino or Coffee: CAPPUCINO, all time favourite.

LAYER 5:
DO YOU…
Smoke: like never..
Curse: this could be made into a long post.
Take a Shower: like im such a clean person, hello?
Have a Crush: YESYESYES!
Think You’ve Been In Love: im not sure..
Go To School: loving it.
Want To Get Married: DUH, but not too soon.
Believe In Yourself: Academically? YES. Socially? YES. Love? I ummmm.

LAYER 6:
IN THE PAST
Drank Alcohol: NOPES.
Gone To The Mall: LIKE FOREVER.
Been On Stage: yes, and its super fun.
Eaten Sushi: loving the crabmeat.
Dyed Your Hair: never, but maybe soon.

LAYER 7:
HAVE YOU EVER…
Played A Stripping Game: its that even a question?

LAYER 9:
IN A GUY…
Best Eye Colour: its not the colour, its the angry-gaze that sends me flying to heaven.
Best Hair Colour: black, dark hot black
Short Hair or Long Hair: short, i wanna look like im WITH a guy.
fringe: not much i guess.
style: please have gel or mush!
body: packs! packs!
conversation: must be UBER CRAAZY. english-speaking please.
looks: id lie if i say i dun care about the guy's looks.
brains: he's gotta be smarter than me.

LAYER 10:
WHAT WERE YOU DOING…
A Minute Ago: running to the toilet.
Hour Ago: Lying on my bed
4.5 Hours Ago: snoring
1 Month Ago: School
Year Ago: enjoying sec 3 life

LAYER 11:
FINISH THE SENTENCES…
I love: being an animal-duck lover
I feel: UBER HORNY.
I hate: gays, guys who camwhore too much.
I hide: my lies
I miss: FRIENDS and sec 3 life.
I need: the toilet like now

2008-05-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

HUIBIN REMEMBERED MY PASSWORD.

2008-05-27T19:48:00.002+08:00

THANKS HUIBIN!

for doing my new blogskin,

credits to her.

shall treat you KFC,

no, we are not eating cheryl,

she's still at home

safe.

2008-05-27T19:09:00.011+08:00

RANDOM PICTURES FROM

picnic outing

watching movie

rau's hair cut day

use your hand campaign

walking home with rau.

2008-05-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

&& LEARING FROM THE MYSTICAL PAST
okay,im back again, and bloodyrowlenghell. i feel like ive just given birth to fifty dogs, which makes me, OH NO, a bitch? nononoo, i think i should put it this way, i feel like ive just given birth to fifty, hmm, fifty, let me see, pumpkins! yeah, okay, i dont know why, but thats the only thing in my mind tHAT strucked me first. weird huh. nothing much happened yesterday, since ive updated bout it.

TODAY
i went to school, feeling so free-spirited and i thought i could control the pain but i end up crying while i called my dad to pick me home. okae, backtrack about three hours before that. maths olympiad test started at 9.30am and ended at 12pm. i managed to take a good nap for like 40mins. the paper was OH SO UBER hard. and i was like practicALLY stoning at every question. because it was super hard. and i didn't know almost all of the questions. i think most o fmy classmates faced the same thing as well. finally, after a Long gruelling 2hrs and 3omins it ended, and i OH SO desperately wanted to go to the toilet and mrs.see said the reason was that i SLEPT too long.HAHAH. and i scrammed my way to the toilet and yes, the infection came and i screamed, in my head. GOSH. i thought the antibiotics worked away the germs, and i have to face the trauma of having to go to the toilet again. once is enough, twice? its worth dying actuALLY. so i sat down after break, and the pain was bad man. so yes i wouldn't ramble my way in this blog to how and why and what happened after that. so my dad picked me up and we went to the doctor.

POLYHOLYMOLY.
well, i met jun ming, and friends with shane and jean. jun ming was sick. ahha, so i took the test and found out that it was another infection. the bottle test was like hot and this is where most of your heat is radiated away from the body yeh. and well, i looked and there was minimal amount of secretion of glucose, which the doctor said was safe and i was like PHEW! I'm not sure if i want to go to school tomorrow. since i have an MC, but then again, I'm not sure. wells, so here i am slacking at home, trying to take a nap fight in front of the computer but unfortunately, i cant, as you can see now. LOLS. i need to change my blogskin so badly. and I'm really hungry, because i miss crapping with hidayat and sufiah. OH PLEASE, send them back home as soon as possible, maybe like NOW?

I'm resting at home and i feel really happy now, and my sis just came back. from i dun wanna say where, LOLS. going to the toilet is still a challenge to me or maybe a grueeling task that i have to overcome. HAHA. and well, its getting better although the part where the muscles relaxes, that part sucks. seriously.

RANTS SHOULD I CHANGE IT TO LETS SPEAK OUT!
woo. i noe it was HARD but i guess staying as friends had and always been the best thing. yeah, love once, love right. that's the moral of the story here. i wont ramble AGAIN. but thanks mr.oprah, you've been great.

OPEN UP HER HEART, CRAFTED IN AN ANGLE OF AN ANGEL
the feelings rising, just like last year. call me a bitch, yes i am one huibin. hahah. i miss them already. my sis showed my mum the pictures and my mum was like," why he suddenly look fat?" i was like noooo, he looks BUFF MUM, BUFF! and my mum commented on everyone whom she sees in the camera. and she kept saying " O LEVELS FIRST ADIK." yes mam. HAHAH, me and cheryl and a few others in our class are planning to use our prelims marks to aim for MJC. lets hope the whole 4/8 can go to SPEECH DAY next year. I noe we can do it. and me and zq hope that we can all go to the same jc next year. lets work hard together yeah?

2008-05-26T17:03:00.003+08:00

this wooman,camwhore with me

like so alot.

and she helped me to straightened my fringe.

hahhah.

and yes.

so UBER RANDOM.

RANTS THAT I SHOULD CONFIDE WITH SUFIAH

think of him, and you can forget the other.

im doing that,

and im close, so close.

to forgiving the past, and loving the future.

i guess, you are waiting for me to tell you to let go.

but maybe, you know it before you want me to say so.

let the truth spill out, because its time we face it.

nah, im not mad.

understanding is the key to everything.

2008-05-26T16:13:00.004+08:00

&& "LET GO BEFORE IT GETS TOO EMOTIONAL ,"SAID SHAZNI
just came home, oh dear. such a buys tiring day. shall update more soon. im still wearing my school uniform. guess what, i just got home.

TODAY, MT O LEVEL PAPER
practicALLY so many people send their wishes to me to do well for O LEVEL. im sure many of you are experiencing the same thing as well rights? even unexpected smses came along. weeee. the paper was well, on the whole, not too easy, and not too hard, its basically doABLE. thanks god. and well, im not gonna describe the whole paper, what came out and so on so forth. but well, everything went well and i finished the paper on time and maybe for the first time, all the good idioms that i memorised for the malay composition was used well, by who? none other than me.. LOLS. okay. after school jackson 4 with nadrah and raudhah went to eat at WS and meera couldnt come, its okay woooman. and after that we SWITHERED again. haha, in the end we went to ELIAS MALL at about 2pm because raudhah wanted to cut her hair so OOFF we went. while she cut, we doodled around with the books there and took photos of raudhah which i shall update soon. HAHAH. and after that we all went home. quite a short day.. well,everyone was tired.

YESTERDAY
just as my sis came back home, i screamed at her and she smiled. "I GOT HIS PICTURE!", she screamed sarcastically. i didnt believed her and when i looked at the picture, suddenly and literALLY, i went into a coma. LOL, i was actuALLY just in a daze. LOL. he was i mean, IS, so chaud. chaudder then last time. and rau said no. NO?? maybe his hair lah. and my sis was like UBER shortlah, raimi practicALLY towered over her. well, after that we race against time to help me memorise my peribahasa, which thankfully was easy just now.

and it was freezing cold in the hall. i want to request that we are allowed to wear gloves to O LEVEL. seriously. and i said many wrong words that sounded stupid and huibin typed them all down so that she can put it in her blog. stuuupid.

I don't know what you are

But one look and I'm hooked

from the start

Now I'm falling apart

"That's what you get for falling in love"

Tonight I took in his eyes for the first time

Here's hoping this pain will end

-kill hannah

i read, and i laughed, no shock of tears, because it happened before, well something similar.. and people cheat. they always do. we each have someone to look forward to, to care for. i have mine, so does he. uber period. the end is coming. i can feel it. OUCH.

2008-05-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

me and nadiah

the fishes need some sprinkling of food.

konichiwa, finally,some photos of my JAPAN TRIP,that took uber long for me to put in my blog.sorry folks,theres more to come.

2008-05-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

LIKE A HEART OH, SO TRUE
I'm back and yes, back for one of the same old boring posts, dull but yet,dull. blogs are where you open up yourself to others and just be yourself for a moment. its a time, where just for a minute, everyone is paying attention to you like never before. that's why they call blogs an ONLINE DIARY. so lets make full use of it shall we?

YESTERDAY 250508
this day was super fun. i met hb at WS BURGER KING at around 4.15pm. she was super late and faulted the bus instead of her slow waddling. well, when she arrived we took out our MT books to do. just the two of us doesn't mean its going to be a boring study time. well, we called cheryl and pestered her to come and join us since she is not going to HILLSONG.

on the phone with cheryl...
phone is ringing
SPEAKER: "hello?"
ALYAH: "hi cheryl"
SPEAKER: "wait uh..."
knocks on the door...
SPEAKER: "cheche?" (sister in chinese)
hahahhaah.

omygard, i mistook cheryl for her BROTHER. both their voices sounded the same. LOL! haha. well, she insisted to stay at home and we called her again.

ALYAH:" whats ur l1r5?"
HUIBIN:" (i cant remember the number..)"
ALYAH:" you can go for nursing course."
HUIBIN:" nurse animal."
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

omygard, she admitted it! hahah, so thats why i called cheryl to inform her about huibin's ambition! of course huibin denied everything uh and finally cheryl decided to meet us if only we went to macdonalds at ELIAS MALL. so we packed our stuffs, bought stationary at POPULAR, drank double chocolate and took the 358 bus to ELIAS MALL.

ELIAS MALL.
we saw ZQ and jessica and tricia. cheryl came and we all studied. it was really funny lah. we laugh here and there BUT we did find time to of course concentrate with our school work. we also talked bout the HEATY subject, JCs. and i smsed him to clear my doubts. LOL. we studied till about 9.30pm and my dad asked me to go home myself went i was super tired. so huibin went home with her parents and cheryl, was so kind enough (so weird for a chicken) to send me to the busstop. we talked for awhile and along the way i was busy smsing.sometimes cheryl disturbed my focus on what to sms him, although it wasnt much of a strain. ahah. so i went home, upload my BSB songs to my hp and slept.

TODAY
nothing much happened. gearing up for tommorow MT OLEVEL. i wonder whether sufiah and hidayat reached EUROPE ALREADY. i miss them both already.LOL. and my sis is at CIKGU HARTINI wedding. hahah.

RANTS OF THE NEVER DYING FOOLISHNESS
his lively character is the one that makes me fall for him so easily eventhough his face, shows no sign of anything, so like "readysteadysetgo" kinda look. and i even told him that i didnt wanna go vjc because the top schools like mrs.sheri say, sometimes have no sex life. hahah, but thats not the real reasonlah. and he emphasised on that word with big fonts. . and i said that im aiming for MJC because i wanna be at a school where im happy at. and he talked about the subjects there when i asked him. and he even asked why not try for RJC, sarcastically lah. HAHAH. and he always end the smses with a smile which really is hahah, very nice. i know its smses only but went you're feeling down, just this few things can make you smile again,right?. and i asked him," what? you don't want to see me in MJC right, auntie". HAHAH, and he said it wasn't like that, he just want the BEST for me. i was like awww, so sweet.haha.. HAHA, well, it was really really a kind gesture.. and he said that if i wanted the best and that is to go MJC....and seeing him... then shure. haha. omygard, why am i sharing with you this convo? lol. well, he just makes me just as happy, the happy feeling when I'm with my close friends. thanks for making my day. i really appreciate it.

TO JACKSON 5
stay strong man. whatever it is, we still have each other yeah?

2008-05-24T14:01:00.001+08:00

A THOUSAND LINES

A HUNDRED THREADS

TEN COLOURS

ONE WORD

2008-05-24T13:10:00.002+08:00

OH UBER RANDOM

& you noe what

i forgot the letter "h".

2008-05-24T12:11:00.004+08:00

&& DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE SO CHAUD?
(chaud= hot in french)
rights. I'm back here, today was like super funny.

MT INTENSIVE
it started at 8am and i woke up at 7.30am. so i quickly got changed like some mad woman and ran out of the house at 8am. nice alyah, nice. and avenged sevenfold in my ears kept me walking in a fast pace. thanks sinister. hahah. oh! when i reached school, i saw the whole group: nabilah, shazni,nadrah and raudhah waiting for me at the school busstop under the hot weather when they can actually go in already. i was really truly touched. so we walked into the school and headed up to the AVA, via the teachers staircase and we were invited by a flouting spider that got itself tangeled with a wind-pollinated plant. woooh. haha, nabilah's reaction was so funny and the whole group walked into the AVA, like nobody's business. hahah. and it was 8.20am already. so we sat with salihah and we all started to play BINGO. salihah and nabilah plus the small girl name nadrah said the numbers while me and rau with shazni played. HAAH, it was funny because nadrah kept saying the numbers either the others have said it or she just said it previously. it was utter fun. HAHAH. and irfan came when he wasn't suppose to. HAHA.

after school, all of us were SWITHERING because we all didn't noe where to go. nadrah waited for the bus 358 to head to WS to meet her mum. the four of us, stared at the road. we wanted to go to tampines via bus 3 but then we decide to head to ws. so we all walked and burst out laughing every second. mostly because of cyclist that cycled pass us. one of them was riding on a creaking bicycle, that sounded so melodious to us, and his face beamed " steady". HAHAH, we met the nearest busstop, took bus 3 and me and rau waved byebye to nabilah and shazni who headed home. the both of us went to POPULAR to buy my assessments, i got maths, a maths, biology and chem. i had only 30 bucks with me. after that we went to KFC to eat. we grabbed our food and ate and crapped alot. HAHAH. it was uber fun. we walked back home after that. we walked pass the fishing area, fishing.... reminds me so much of him. and rau said thats why he is very patient and i added.. "dark and hot". i told her if he had a girlfriend, ill cry my heart,lungs,soul out,everything that come out, come outlah.. HAHA. well, we reached home finally. so some very nice cotton on the grasses. haha. and now im getting ready to go study at WS. only me and huibin, please join if any of you are free. hahah.

HANNAH HANNAH HANNAH
hannah likes blue. hannah doesn't like people who cheats, but maybe hannah does it sometimes. hannah doesn't like when people, especially does close to hannah heart, come and go daily. hannah wants to dye the end's of hannah;'s hair red. hannah wants to fly away. hahah, hannah is a crazy soul.

When I'm crashing through the madness,

Not sure who I'm supposed to be.

When I'm caught up in the darkness,

But your hand that's leading me.

You bring me back to solid ground.

You lift me up right here, right now

-some hearts

2008-05-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

THIS CRAZY WOOOMAN!

IS 19TH YEARS OLD TODAY

though she might look scary,

i STILL LOVE HER SO!

HAPPY BURFDAE PHAT.

i owe you nothing!

2008-05-23T22:01:00.004+08:00

WE ROCK 08!

DEAR YOU,

I never promised you a ray of light,

I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,

I'll give you everything I have,

the good, the bad.

I always said that I would make mistakes,

I'm only human,

and that's my saving grace,

So don't be blinded

See me as I really am,

- Haley James Scott

2008-05-23T20:59:00.008+08:00

&& YOU BRING THE FIRE AND THE WIND, RIGHT DOWN THE YELLOW LINE.
here today, gone tomorrow. today was a pretty DULL, mundane day actually. i was feeling under the weather in the morning because of the endless nights and i always end up sleeping late at night, up to even 1am because i have no idea why.LOL. wells, walked to school with sufiah and in the morning we had spot check and many of the guys in my class were caught because of their superlong fringe. and MRS.grace low told me to not use a rubberband since monday is our O LEVEL MT EXAM. im really excited and so are the rest of you yeh? and MT lesson, we listened to some jiwang malay songs to help us for our malay composition. mrs.see didn't come for maths and we had mrs.sheri as our relief. we had a break from 10.20am to 11.10am. jackson 5 and cheryl plus charlene, lynn, GK, and yin ai stayed in class. mrs.sheri too, because cheryl was helping her to type some name list. we had a great conversation with her. i remembered the best parts obviously.

MRS.SHERI: "YAH, MJC have hot guys".
ALYAH: "like umar".
MRS.SHERI: "everyone wants umar.."
ALYAH:" (I SAID SOMETHING HERE)...."
MEERA:" get a grip of yourself!"

MRS.SHERI:" when you go to UNIVERSITY, very leceh you know.."
ALL:"why?"
MRS.SHERI:" must buy clothes, wear make up, have to look good. if you still dun look good something is wrong with you uh".
HAOSHAN:" no clothes, then dun wear any loh".

HAHAHAH, really funny. well, we had USE YOUR HAND CAMPAIGN. and i asked meiling why i cant remember much about last year use your hand campaign. she also asked me why. so we stoned for awhile and suddenly, i burst out loud and told her, they went to another place to clean and not their class, thats why we didn't see them. and we high-5 one another, over cheryl's head. HAHAH. and well, ling told me that we always cleaned the railings outside our class. yeh, i remember. sigh. well, we got back our report book and im satisfied with my results, but i know i can do better. and i shouldn't be grumbling because i know that i dun have to prove to anyone that i have to maintain my position in level, i only have to prove to myself. also, those students who are above me have more points in their L1 R5. whats important is your L1R5 and i think im pleased with 11 points. but i can go below 10points, hopefully. and i dun care if people start to say,"omygard, she go down sah". let them say whatever they wana say because at the end, its still me facing my own life. positive thoughts,remember that superman.

jackson four went to eat cup noodles. and haoshan's language was a very strong just now. ahahah, after that we headed to MT lesson, where me and shahira and andrea grueled in BINGO. husni kept coughing and we keep snickering at him. so noisy. well, after that, at about 4.30pm, we headed home, DENGDENG INC, we walked to the busstop at my house, but before that we dropped by the malay shop at central to buy GORENG PISANG, i think for the time being we are stopping or putting on hold, the wantings to drink BUBBLE TEA, because since last night, everyone was thinking that BB TEA can cause diabetes, and it can hit you at any age. so people, BEWARE. haha, the small gurl, nadrah,was super funny and i want to kill her every second. i kept talking with my mouth full and the words that i spoke, sounded like some "uberwuberuber". ahha. well, waved GOOD BYE and me and rau walked back home.

&& BE MY SUPERMAN?
i want to have three piercings at my right ear and maybe two at my left. huibin only have one ear, so i dont know how she want to pierce. and i hoped JC wont be strict because im not cutting my hair till godknowswent and im planning to get a new hairstyle at the end of the year. so much to do, how much longer do i have to wait? LOLS. you know what i miss him. hahah, randomness.
and shariff and sufiah are heading off to their EUROPE TRIP tomoro night. gonna miss them both terribly. DUN FORGET TO COME BACK!!!! hahah, yerp.

&&&&&TOMORO'S PLAN
8-10am: malay intensive programme
10am onwards: maybe go buy books at popular and eat.
3pm onwards: at WS BURGER KING, studying.

many people are bailing out of the study group since most of them are going to the HILLSONG CONCERT, a christian band at fort canning. haoshan even asked me to go, just to have fun. i was like... haha, its okay. enjoy okay you people?

BYE PEOPLE.
and hannah says that she misses him.

2008-05-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

LOVE YOU GUYS
(cant you tell, im with the hat?)

2008-05-22T22:04:00.004+08:00

I WANT TO TELL YOU
okay, when i was little, i dreamed of being called HANNAH, because it sounded so ANGELLIC. and well, theres this UBERROCK BAND called KILL HANNAH that rocks out loud. try hearing "crazy angel". it WILL blow you away. its been a long time since Ive put a LOUD song on my blog. i should find a good one. and nabilah zahara, I WANT MY AVENGED SEVENFOLD CD BACK!. okay, anyways, theres still this HANNAH angel-like girl living in my heart and i think she has been longing to speak up. its always me and me who says it all but id like HANNAH to for once, or start to share this blog with me. eyh HANNAH? call me crazy, but sometimes, talking to HANNAH, has made me some of the best decisions Ive made in my life so far.so when i have nothing to type, HANNAH shall do the work for me.

SO WELCOME MY FRIEND,
HANNAH.

&& HANNAH LIKES TO SAY.
HI, hannah here. you might find it weird to listen to me but mind you, I'm just being me. hannah like happy things. hannah doesn't like to see people crying or be emo with the world around them. hannah wants to save more people and save the EARTH from more disastrous events. hannah love people, especially those closest to the heart. hannah' heart is split into two. sometimes, hannah contradicts. hannah say hannah dun like to see people to cry, but hannah herself cries because hannah is scared. firstly hannah sometimes wish hannah can talk to him every night on the fon like they used to. hannah wants to make his worries go away and make him happier again. but hannah cannot, hannah scared that he thinks hannah tries to be that other girl. hannah hates jealousy, eventhough he says he cares for hannah. hannah want him to know that hannah will always be there if he needs someone to talk to. hannah cares. hannah misses him alot. however, the past crepts up and hannah drools over him. hannah likes him, even before this. he makes hannah feel herself, and forget hannah's insecurities. he makes hannah feel smart and be proud of it. he makes hannah smile, laugh and scream. hannah goes crazy for him because he is everything hannah wants in a guy. he makes hannah smile. hannah really like him, but he doesnt like hannah, he's just being a very good friend. BUT hannah wish, he would like hannah the way hannah is... but...no, its okay.hannah wants more, but there are limits and hannah must stop herself.hannah also wants to do well for her O LEVEL, get at least 7 points and go a good jc, most likely MJC. hannah wants to be close to her friends and see him and him more. hannah is thankful to have a guyfriend that allows hannah to share hannah's feelings with him. hannah want hannah friends to be all happy. hannah wants nadrah to keep on focusing in her studies. hannah wants cherie to stop crying. hannah wants shazni to always be by her side because hannah loves shazni like a sister. hannah wants jackson 5 to always keep the fun going. hannah wants to KILL THE DUCK. hannah wants raudhah to smile always, and forget the pain. hannah want hannah classmates to all do well for O LEVEL. hannah loves them all. hannah wants hannah sister to do well at tpjc. hannah wants to succeed in life, like many other. but the main thing is, hannah wants to change the world, but firstly, she has to change alyah first. hannah can do it.

HANNAH DREAMS ALOT.
HANNAH IS ME
but i believe,someday, i can be HANNAH and be good.

TAG REPLIES
mr.oprah: HAHA.
hidayat: THANKSLAH REALLY.
namie: I LOVE YOU TOOO LAH.
nadrah: dont worry, i still love and hate you k?
pinky: my dear cuzzie, BLUE ROCKS!

2008-05-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

&&I'M DREAMING OF YOU, YOU, JUST YOU.
yes, I'm back to do a proper update. wonder why Ive been gone so long? because, well, Ive been going ultimaticALLY crazy this few days. just ask my friends and my auntie.

TUESDAY NIGHT, MY COMPUTER BURNED.
like literALLY, because HE WAS ONLINE!!!!! ahhhhh, like i screamed. really. and i got help to start the convo, so kindlah that person to help and then leave the convo. haha, and i thought he wouldn't start talking. AND HE DID!!!! AHHHHH!!! omygard. i called raudhah and i screamed to her like some mad wooman, really, i SCREAMED at raudhah, and she was laughing her ass off. really, omygard, and everytime he replied, i screamed at rau. of course i needed her to help me reply because i was completely out of fresh air. and he was sooooooo burning my computer, and i really wanted to drool like hell. i wanna slap his face! and my mum nagged at me for using the computer so long and i told her it was really important that i dont go offline, so i told her, she knows him, and she was like " fine, i give you 15 more mins". i was like THANKS MUM! hahah, and she read part of the convo and she rolled her eyes. SHE ROLLED! hahah. and well, continued for awhile after i went offline, sms him because i helped him elaborate his malay karangan. and yes, he was like, OOFFFH. and i cant sleep that night, i jumped around my dad like some VOODOO DOLL, i literALLY said:" omygard, i talked to the HIM!". my dad was like "yaya, make me pay more electrical bills". im very open with my parents bout this, i hate to keep it from them. and they understand, teenage hormones but they guy must be goodlah. obviously, who doesn't. oh well, i slept like some POOOPOOO princess, having OH SO GOOD DREAMS. okay, im waddling too much.

THE MORNING OF WEDNESDAY
i screamed when i met shazni and we ate breakfast. and i literALLY strangled denise, cheryl, huibin and nadrah and raudhah. HAHAH, the whole day i smiled like some GUNDU WOMAN, yes im a bim-brain but i was like so happy, dunnoe why, even though it was just for one night, but it felt UBER GREAT. well, after school we headed to central, and only saw my auntie, hidayat. he wasn't therelah, i want to scream. so the unlucky. HAHA, well we headed to tuition and we walked home and saw that the moon was UBER BIG, and talked about the end of the world and all. its really scary, seriously.

TODAY, 220508
i decided not to go for the incentive programme. i need to prepare for the NEBO CHALLENGE. prepare to win money, money that's big, BIG MONEY. hahah, i still smiled like a crazy woman.and some of us hang out at central after 5pm.

ALYAH: "whats that?"
HUIBIN:"my father! (it sounded like my father)"
ALYAH:" your feather is your father???"
HUIBIN:" i said FEATHER! repeat with me FEATHER!"

AND huibin showed me the most scariest face Ive ever seen, i almost dropped to the ground. and we all laughed like mad. i thought BIG BIRD bathed with rubber ducky. ahahh. AND WE send huibin backed home, her bus took a million years to come and we laughed at the bus stop. after that we went home and I REJOICED again, since

DAVID COOOOK WON!!!!!!!
haha, sorry denise, it ll forever be cook.

ALYAH: "the difference of the davids' votes is 12 million,okay."
MATTHEW:" what!!! you heard that denise, 12 million people like david cook more".
SHAZNI:" err, 12 million votes does not mean 12 million people. maybe one person vote 12 million times".

SHE HAS A POINT THERE... hahah, and we walked home. oh yeah, they have some ELEARNING STUFF, so obviously have no chance to see him right. sigh. according to rau, i have 150 more schooling days to get LUCKY. i already got lucky, erm,let me see, more than 1o times? ill take my chances.

AUNTIE showed me the picture, its this one, no that one, and yeh, its that one. okay uh, not bad, but they look UBER INNOCENT with their hair pin up. haha, you've gotta go SPYING my friend, and thanks for talking and sharing with me. really appreciate the fact that i trust your opinions and siaowness and you ROCK EVERY MOLECULE OF YOU! hahaha.

can i go now?

2008-05-22T13:40:00.004+08:00

REVERIE SMILES

do you know just how

one person
one action
one word
one second
one..
one
one
one good good view
can make my world go round?

clearly, i hate hidayat because i see him too much.
it should be someone else.

LOL.

2008-05-21T07:03:00.003+08:00

THE BEST NIGHT EVER
i didnt want to sleep last night,let alone lie on the bed,
because, i rejoiced. im so damn happylah.
and can i say that for once:
shariff hidayat rocks BIG TIME.
lol, i still cant believe it hapened.
WAKE UP ALYAH,
IT DID.

2008-05-20T21:05:00.004+08:00

YOU'RE MY ONLY SUNSHINE, GOLDEN RAIN.

&&& MY COMPUTER GOT UBER HOT, BECAUSE HE'S ONLINE

omygard, like i cant breathe sah! like oh no. hahah, going mad, yes my friends, if those of you might have heard, im much better, credits to shazni, rau for telling me UBER HOT NEWS. hate that i have to love them eventhough i hate them. TheY SAW OMYGARD. i noe now the reason why the temperature gets tooo far high. okay well, ill goonna slowly update my blog with the JAPAN and PICNIC FOTOS. im UBER LAZY. and guess what i got 4th in class which is like a miracle and for that i got into the incentive programme stuff. those who are going had expected to be invited for dinner at the SINGAPORE FLYER. instead we have to go to some JUNKYARD PLACE: senoko fishery, pasir panjang wholesale market. what the uber stuff is that? and it clashes with my NEBO AMAZING RACE. okay, thE INCENTIVE STUFF is like from 7.45pm on 30may to 0600am of 31may. and the NEBO CHALLENGE IS ON 31MAY!!!!! can i like scream and die now? walao. hmmm,s till thinking. meera, think hard. omygard, i think im going crazy. can i die now? i hate rau and shazni and that SMALL GURL NAME NADRAH. you moron people. walao. walao. still nagging. omygard. okay, tomoro, wooohoo. breakfast at ws macs. WOOOH. 7.40am people. dun be late. AND DOUBle CHOCOLATE!!! omygard, im gaining so much weight, i have to have EXTRAEXTRA practices in dance class later. DIE. woooh..and did i tell you i love blue? i love brown? i love roooster hair? i love white bags? i love any guitarist, eg. DAVID COOOK. bloody hell, superly uperly my HERO. neh, i already have tooo many SUPERHEROES SUPERMANS, its me,... MEEEEEE. WEEE.. my computer is burning. YOU! go offline!

THE WORLD IS STARTING TO SHINE.

marryyourgodmother, save the queen.